bradley26

i had my first drink on around the 13th of march 2014. my First drink since december 2013. I came on here and said that i had got drunk and that it would only be for a few days. Well i guess i didnt learn my lesson for the 10000th time. Its been a month and i have been drunk for 70% of the tme.Its gone so quick MY Life was improving before i started drinking but in 4 weeks i have spent all my savings even though its only 500 pounds , missed my work appointments which has caused me a massive backlog. my only friend i have is not speaking to me and my dad wont speak to me after a drunken argument after a day at the football. I Honestly feel like i have a mental illness. If theres any advice i can give to any of you its know matter what youre bad thoughts tell u, do not listen to them but listen to ur soul. youre soul never lies... I just didnt listened this time

Dee74

Bradley - maybe it's time to consider something like discussing your problem with your Dr, AA, or even rehab?

Things are not going to get better until you do something about them - y'know?

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Anna

Bradley, I'm glad you're back, and you're right your soul never lies. The trouble was I stopped listening to my soul, drowned it out, completely ignored it. I had to learn to listen to it again in order to recover.

Do you have a plan?

Hevyn

Hi Bradley. I'm glad you posted about what happened, even though it's painful. I did the same thing over & over. I always thought I would magically have control and just enjoy a few drinks. Once I convinced myself that was never going to happen I was able to stop trying to manage my drinking. It had to stop all together - I couldn't touch the stuff.

It sounds like you're realizing there's nothing good at the bottom of that bottle. I hope you stay and keep posting.

Thepatman

Welcome back! I know about the ups and downs. Been there also.

I needed additional support. So here I am waiting for my first one on one therapist outpatient program I registered to.

Don't try to be a super hero, people need different level of support. Nothing to be shamed about.

Nonsensical

Yup.

I've had a voice in my head telling me lies about alcohol for 25 years. I quit listening to it last November and things have got better ever since.

You can do this, too. Rootin' for ya!

least

The less attention you give that little 'voice', the fainter it becomes until finally you won't hear it at all.