what is wrong with me?
what is wrong with me?
I keep coming back..reading all the posts and so many I can relate to. I had a good 3 months going but have been struggling for the past few months. The weekends that start with beer and end with shots. I see old habits coming back. The sneaking and lying. The hidden mini bottles. The acid reflux and headaches. I stop by the Abc store after work for 3 to 5 mini bottles and drink them all within 30 minutes. I don't keep anything at home. I dont drink at work but i sneak to the Abc store while on a grocery run.
I'm pitiful and a lier and i hate myself. Dare I say tomorrow is day one yet again?
I will come here at my trigger time..I know you will help me. I have got to do this. Thanks for reading. I'm sorry for being a broken record.
I'm pitiful and a lier and i hate myself. Dare I say tomorrow is day one yet again?
I will come here at my trigger time..I know you will help me. I have got to do this. Thanks for reading. I'm sorry for being a broken record.
I'm sorry you're struggling but I'm glad you're back
Take it day by day or hour by hour if need be. Can you get to the grocery store without driving past the ABC store? Go out of your way to avoid that store. Might be a good place to start.
Take it day by day or hour by hour if need be. Can you get to the grocery store without driving past the ABC store? Go out of your way to avoid that store. Might be a good place to start.
I will try to go to the grocery on Sunday when the Abc isn't open. As for the stopping after work I must not go that way home but I find myself anxious to get there after a stressful day.
Its silly I know. I guess the AV is really powerful.
Now this may sound really strange but sometimes I feel like it is the one thing that is MINE. I have a husband a daughter a granddaughter a job...and I feel like its all about them. Nothing is just mine. And I don't have time for much of anything else. Crazy. I just need to read a book or something
Its silly I know. I guess the AV is really powerful.
Now this may sound really strange but sometimes I feel like it is the one thing that is MINE. I have a husband a daughter a granddaughter a job...and I feel like its all about them. Nothing is just mine. And I don't have time for much of anything else. Crazy. I just need to read a book or something
I will try to go to the grocery on Sunday when the Abc isn't open. As for the stopping after work I must not go that way home but I find myself anxious to get there after a stressful day.
Its silly I know. I guess the AV is really powerful.
Now this may sound really strange but sometimes I feel like it is the one thing that is MINE. I have a husband a daughter a granddaughter a job...and I feel like its all about them. Nothing is just mine. And I don't have time for much of anything else. Crazy. I just need to read a book or something
Its silly I know. I guess the AV is really powerful.
Now this may sound really strange but sometimes I feel like it is the one thing that is MINE. I have a husband a daughter a granddaughter a job...and I feel like its all about them. Nothing is just mine. And I don't have time for much of anything else. Crazy. I just need to read a book or something
Yes, come back peaches. I know how you feel about owning the alcohol as yours because everything else seems to be for everyone else. I have two young children, a full time job and a husband that works crazy hours. I am the one who gets the kids up and out the door in the morning after fighting them into their clothes. Making their lunches and I am the one who puts them to bed at night while trying to keep them quiet so my husband can sleep. It is exhausting. You are probably exhausted. But sobriety is for you and you can own that.
It takes time. You can do it. If you feel you have to force it sometimes, you just may have to for the ultimate rewards. I have four months and to tell the truth, while I feel physically better, mentally I am very tired. But I had one day. One really brief period of time I cling to where sobriety felt like a gift and not a burden. Out of four months. It was the promise of a new beginning so even though the four months was good, I know that it can be great. There is nothing wrong with you. Hang in there. You can do it. And take a bubble bath with a good book and the door closed.
It takes time. You can do it. If you feel you have to force it sometimes, you just may have to for the ultimate rewards. I have four months and to tell the truth, while I feel physically better, mentally I am very tired. But I had one day. One really brief period of time I cling to where sobriety felt like a gift and not a burden. Out of four months. It was the promise of a new beginning so even though the four months was good, I know that it can be great. There is nothing wrong with you. Hang in there. You can do it. And take a bubble bath with a good book and the door closed.
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