Had a really strange thought this morning
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Had a really strange thought this morning
Good Morning - so I'm in my way to work this morning. Day 22 for me. Still going to meetings, working with my sponsor and keeping myself busy so that I don't have "down time". This thought comes to me. What if my horrible marriage is what was driving me to drink and become uncontrollable? What if the uncontrollable situation is what made me a crazy person? What, if now that I am getting over it, I could drink again and not lose it like I used to when I was with my alcoholic X. Then it occurs to me, I could ask someone to sit in a room with me and see if I can drink one beer. Brain kicks in and says, "Are you kidding me? You'd go right back to where you were." End of conversation, but still the thought lingers.
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Remember that warning bell on the original Star Trek? Super loud... WOOP, WOOP, WOOP! Just replace that with, AV, AV, AV! Don't listen to it as it is just trying to derail your fantastic efforts!
Keep it rolling and you will have a month in no time!
Keep it rolling and you will have a month in no time!
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The mind/body was used to alcohol every day, take away the alcohol and it still wants it as that is what it is used to, therefore it will tell all the lies it can get away with!!
great job on pushing through!!
great job on pushing through!!
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I've been having those EXACT same thoughts myself. You're not alone there. I know that If I were to drink again the same bloody cycle would repeat itself. I'm on day 31 myself. Congrats on making it to day 22 my friend. Remember....ONE DAY AT A TIME. Keep it up! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
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Sirca - HUGE congrats on 31 days!! It's good to hear i'm not the only one thinking those thoughts, the mind is a very strange creature. lol. TY Holli, 2bhappier, & Nonsensical! Hope - I like your suggestion! very cool.
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been down that road....
and guess what; turns out, if it's not the horrible marriage, it's the bills. Or the college. Or the ******* at the store. Or the lack of a marriage. Or the celebration that you're not in a horrible marriage anymore. Or the fact that it's sunny. Or it's Thursday.....
Nice catch, stay on that Sober Path!!! It's so much better.
and guess what; turns out, if it's not the horrible marriage, it's the bills. Or the college. Or the ******* at the store. Or the lack of a marriage. Or the celebration that you're not in a horrible marriage anymore. Or the fact that it's sunny. Or it's Thursday.....
Nice catch, stay on that Sober Path!!! It's so much better.
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The voice will always try to persuade you that it will be ok.. its like luring you to your doom.... give it a gnarly hard stare and tell it to @£&* off.... well done for revisiting, and for getting so far!!!
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Originally Posted by mimi2014 
Thanks Aarryckha! I think I might be be getting better at this. How are you doing?
Think I'm going to go for a walk in a bit. It's sunny outside. Get some vitamin D.
I'm proud of you. It sounds like that little voice was sure trying hard to get you to drink. Congrats on your resolve to stay sober!
/hugs
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if alcoholic we will return to our misery of the liquid devil
Originally Posted by mimi2014
I could ask someone to sit in a room with me and see if I can drink one beer.
all worked out just fine
until eventually I found myself drunk yet again
we can experiment all we want
and try our best to prove different
but
if alcoholic
in time we will return to our misery
if for me I would not call it a strange thought
I would call it a thought sent straight from hell
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