Kys

I've come undone again these last few days, drinking, and it's like I'm trapped in that loop again of "I'll start tomorrow".

I know how stupid this sounds, and it is. It's just really happening though and I'm a bit scared to he honest, that I won't pull myself back out.

LadyinBC

It doesn't sound stupid and it is a very scary feeling to think you can't get out of it.

You can do it, you can break the cycle. You just have to find your mojo. Can you get to a meeting? Or someone you can call?

IOAA2

Boy can I identify! I spent +2 years procrastinating and thankfully I could see my decent down the path of la la land. Very scary so I surrendered to the fact I could NOT drink in safety ANYMORE and got to work on being recovering. Worked for many of us.

BE WELL

Nonsensical

Nothing wrong with a bit of fear. If I drink again I might not make it back. That thought scares the Hell out of me.

You've been here before and you know the drill - dump it out, Kid. Waiting makes it harder, not easier.

Get back in the fight.

soberclover

You can make it out of this Kys. You just have to want it bad enough. I hope you are able to make this choice before something bad happens. Nothing good ever happens when people continue drinking. Don't be afraid of sobriety. You aren't alone.

Mountainmanbob

yes - as I look back to my very heavy drinking days
I'm very grateful for the escape path that God provided
for many do get lost in the fog of despair of the liquid devil

please take it all very seriously Kys
take steps to do everything that you can so as to be sober

many people will say "oh yes I will do anything"
only to state later "but I won't do that"

please -- be the one willing to do whatever it takes

Mountainman

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When you want to be sober more than you want to drink, then you'll be able to stay sober.

Anna

You can step out of the cycle, but it isn't easy. It's normal to be scared, but you need to do it anyways.

Dee74

Maybe re-reading your old posts will help Kys.

Why do you think you go well for a while and then go back to drinking?

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Kys

Thank you everyone, and proud to say I got through last night and didn't get caught up drinking.

Got a really early night, thought I'd wake up after a quick sleep but ended up sleeping right through. I needed the sleep considering how little I got the night before and how crappy I felt yesterday. Not out of the woods but I'm baffled how my body ever handled with this month after month.

Kys