Randummy

Hello,

I had a drink tonight and I feel incredibly angry towards myself. I've gone for a little while without any alcohol so the two drinks have provided me with that double-vision, why have i done this to myself complex.

I know I'm an idiot and I regret the choices I made this evening, However, I am geuinelely worried about dealing with long working hours etc and occasional family stress, so I'd like to hear from someone else in a similar situation. I have a good job, but I don't have anyone to talk to that's been involved in addiction.

least

Don't beat yourself up too badly. Take a deep breath and start again. There's no time like the present to start over.

liss74

Worst feeling I feel your pain, I have had so much support here and it helped me so much and continues to just keep going that's my experience after several relapses just kept showing up it was so painful. You only fail if you stop trying , take something from it you are right where your meant to be take it easy you can do this !!!!! X

Natalie17

Don't be angry at yourself. That won't solve anything. Just try again. I know you can do it if you keep trying.

Raider

You're not an idiot. You're an addict. Keep going!!!!!

tornrealization

We have to keep trying.

SeaScape

It really helps to get out or have some hobby or activity during happy hour. For me it doesn't work to just stop drinking. I am trying to finds some hobbies but I work out or do yoga a lot now. I am gonna teach myself to knit...just need some things to do!
Good luck.... Your health will thank you

Dee74

I think to make recovery a long term proposition you need a good solid support network, and you have to be willing to use it Randummy....

even when not drinking is the last thing you want to do, you have to commit yourself to reaching out and making a recovery based decision, not an addiction based one.

what kind of support do you have now?

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1newcreation

Sry to hear that. Don't know if in recovery program, but if so talk to sponsor & if not go to an aa mtg. I'm only suggesting coz sounds that even tho this maybe a demanding job, you love it but don't want to end up loosing it coz of this disease
Best wishes

Chilledice

You are not out of this fight until you are either dead or you DECIDE you are out of the fight! Pick yourself up and go again just keep going! You can do this, no point in beating yourself up what is done is done KEEP GOING!!!