Here we go again...
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Join Date: Dec 2013
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Here we go again...
Hello everyone!
I am new to this site and looking for some support for the next few days, weeks, years?! Here is a little bit of my story... I started smoking heroin when I was about 19 years old and at 22 I quit cold turkey with the help of my very supportive family. I was able to stay sober for 5 years, went back to school and fell in love. This year my grandmother, who I was very close to, passed away and my fiance and I broke up. I couldn't deal with everything going on inside of me so I turned to an old friend for comfort. I was only going to use a couple times, you know, to ease the pain, but that was 7 months ago.
Knowing that my ex doesn't want me back has been the hardest thing for me and I've been a depressed mess. I am currently living with another man who treats me great and I had told him about my problem a few months ago and he thought that I quit but I never did. I cannot tell him again, I need to do this on my own. That is the main reason I am looking for help on here.
I had some stuff to help me, a few oxy's but I took them and cracked and scored again and now I have 6 Vicodin, 8 ativan and 4 ambien to help. I REALLY need to get through this. I cant keep living this way. Anyone in a similar situation or have any words of advice or encoragement? Every time I start to get sick I freak out and feel like I need to get high or something with my ex will come up and I will get extremely sad and crack again.
Any help would be appreciated! Thank you!!
I am new to this site and looking for some support for the next few days, weeks, years?! Here is a little bit of my story... I started smoking heroin when I was about 19 years old and at 22 I quit cold turkey with the help of my very supportive family. I was able to stay sober for 5 years, went back to school and fell in love. This year my grandmother, who I was very close to, passed away and my fiance and I broke up. I couldn't deal with everything going on inside of me so I turned to an old friend for comfort. I was only going to use a couple times, you know, to ease the pain, but that was 7 months ago.
Knowing that my ex doesn't want me back has been the hardest thing for me and I've been a depressed mess. I am currently living with another man who treats me great and I had told him about my problem a few months ago and he thought that I quit but I never did. I cannot tell him again, I need to do this on my own. That is the main reason I am looking for help on here.
I had some stuff to help me, a few oxy's but I took them and cracked and scored again and now I have 6 Vicodin, 8 ativan and 4 ambien to help. I REALLY need to get through this. I cant keep living this way. Anyone in a similar situation or have any words of advice or encoragement? Every time I start to get sick I freak out and feel like I need to get high or something with my ex will come up and I will get extremely sad and crack again.
Any help would be appreciated! Thank you!!
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Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: PA
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Hi Eroin
Sorry I don't have any experience with heroin. Did you try posting on the substance abuse forum below the newcomers. People on there may be able to help.
SR is a very supportive group. Keep reading and writing posts.
I wish I could help more, I just don't have any insight into this for you, just wanted to send you hugs and prayers. Hang in there.
Sorry I don't have any experience with heroin. Did you try posting on the substance abuse forum below the newcomers. People on there may be able to help.
SR is a very supportive group. Keep reading and writing posts.
I wish I could help more, I just don't have any insight into this for you, just wanted to send you hugs and prayers. Hang in there.
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Hi and welcome to SR eroin 
I don;t know anything about heroin either, but if you get sick again, maybe seeing a Dr is a better option than getting whatever from wherever?
Are you thinking about face to face support too - something like NA or another recovery group?
plenty of support here anyway - the other forum someone mentioned is here:
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
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I don;t know anything about heroin either, but if you get sick again, maybe seeing a Dr is a better option than getting whatever from wherever?
Are you thinking about face to face support too - something like NA or another recovery group?
plenty of support here anyway - the other forum someone mentioned is here:
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
D
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