EmmyG

I've been posting a lot lately. My AH's drinking has been getting worse. Last week, he decided he was done with me and can't take my oppression anymore. I was devastated and feeling pathetic for feeling rejected by this person I have stood by and loved.

I brought the boys to my parents' Thursday night and we've been here since. I've been doing ok, haven't cried in two days! Last night I got a text from him saying "Listen, let's just give it 3 months and see if we can change and if not, then we go our separate ways." I didn't respond.

This morning I packed up the car and then we had breakfast with my family. I actually started heading for home, but I changed my mind and turned around. I called to tell him we aren't coming home today and it was obvious he had been drinking. A friend of his from England died on Christmas Day, so that was his excuse. I asked him how on earth he thinks we can be a family if he's going to continue to drink. He said "How will it hurt you guys if I do it away from you? I'll just go off and do it every couple of months or so. It won't affect you." I told him that's not enough and I can't live this way anymore.


Anyway, I heard back about an apartment today and I'm going to see it tomorrow. It's a one bedroom, but it's in the school district and it's in a very safe area. I'm sure I could be creative with the space and make it work. I feel like I've made a lot of progress. I took the baby with me today and went and bought a nice purse, I got a really good deal on it. I've felt sad but so much PEACE being away from him. No worrying about his drinking. I look forward to having a nice, peaceful place for the boys and I to be. Now, I'm only worried he will be drunk all the time and either not be there for the boys, or harass me with drunk calls and anger.

LifeRecovery

EmmyG-

I have followed your posts from the beginning because your story in many ways resembles mine.

I feel like the last year you have been laying roots and you are getting ready to bloom.

Keep growing. I for one think you are doing great.

iamthird

Im glad youre taking steps forward and getting an apartment and treated yourself to a new purse Emmy G. Cater to yourself right now. Thats the hardest thing I struggle with. It was always about my AH or our kids and never myself.

Keep doing what youre doing. You are great!!

Stung

See, you are strong! Way to go Emmy! Keep taking care of yourself and your boys, you're doing great so far and setting such a good example for them.

HopefulinFLA

This is great progress Emmy! One step at a time. You might be surprised at how strong you really are.

ladyscribbler

Go Emmy! Sounds like you're doing great. I bet 2014 has more peace and happiness in store for you.
Now, tell me about this purse. I need some retail therapy by proxy!

HopefulinFLA

LOL. Me too!

readerbaby71

Emmy, you are amazingly strong!!!! Hang in there. You are taking steps to make a better life for you and your children.

Wishing you much love and strength.