Did something I never thought I'd do
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Did something I never thought I'd do
I went to an AA meeting! Literally argued with myself the whole morning, back and forth as to whether or not to go, but for some reason today I made the jump. It wasn't because I drank last night and felt crappy or something like that. I had 5 days sober last week, slipped and had 3 glasses of red wine on Saturday and haven't drank since. I think maybe it was the fact that I was so clear headed today that I was able to make the decision and although extremely nervous, I walked in that door!
I'm not sure what I was expecting... a room full of ex-convicts with tattoos and piercings judging me, staring me down as I walked in, but I was presently surprised. I wasn't judged, but welcomed with open arms. I don't know exactly what the future holds for me, but I do know I will be going back to meetings, and at least give it a chance to help me stay sober. Don't knock it till you try it, right!?
If anything, it was incredibly refreshing to see that these were all normal, successful people, that just like me are or were struggling with the same thing, and although I know that is the case here at SR as well, (and I'm thankful for all of you), there was just something about hearing peoples stories in person that makes it well... a little more personal.
Just had to share. This was a big step for lil' ol me! :o)
I'm not sure what I was expecting... a room full of ex-convicts with tattoos and piercings judging me, staring me down as I walked in, but I was presently surprised. I wasn't judged, but welcomed with open arms. I don't know exactly what the future holds for me, but I do know I will be going back to meetings, and at least give it a chance to help me stay sober. Don't knock it till you try it, right!?
If anything, it was incredibly refreshing to see that these were all normal, successful people, that just like me are or were struggling with the same thing, and although I know that is the case here at SR as well, (and I'm thankful for all of you), there was just something about hearing peoples stories in person that makes it well... a little more personal.
Just had to share. This was a big step for lil' ol me! :o)
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Everyone who was at that meeting, and everyone here at SR who goes to meetings, and especially I am grateful that you went to that meeting. AA does not promote itself, so all we can do to help others is be at that meeting and wait for them to come to us.
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I remember worrying who was going to be in those rooms and if it was someone I knew, then I would be known and outed as an alcoholic.
Then I thought, if there is someone in there I know, they too are an alcoholic.
And I chuckled at my self aggrandizement.
It's a pretty magical program. Good on you for finding your chops.
Then I thought, if there is someone in there I know, they too are an alcoholic.
And I chuckled at my self aggrandizement.
It's a pretty magical program. Good on you for finding your chops.
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I was very hesitant to go to AA meetings myself. After my first one I relapsed. Then went to treatment where they slam it down your throat and now I enjoy most of the meetings I go to. I started working the program and that seems to help, just getting involved. I was very hesitant at the whole higher power thing and now it came to the point that I had to accept it. I was lost and couldn't stop drinking without it. Now I have met a few new friends and ran into some old ones.
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Congrats, Pinot! Whatever it takes. You joined SR shortly after me; in that time I feel like I've kind of "walked the road" alongside you. I've thrilled in your triumphs and felt for you when you stumbled. I know you want sobriety, and I wish it could come more easily for you. But easy or hard, it will come!
Hang in there, and know that there are better days ahead!
Hang in there, and know that there are better days ahead!
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Originally Posted by digdug 
Keep coming back!
Thank you for all the support! Even if I decide it's not the right fit for me, I at least showed myself that I could do something out of my comfort zone, and that in itself is huge. :-)
Back again tomorrow!
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