teardrop

first time in 5 weeks i really feel like giving in now

i had a sh!t day

everyone and everything is annoying me

whats the f...ing point

just want it all to end

all i do is fight my ocd everyday which makes my life sh!t and nearly unlivable anyway

MWL1983

Go get yourself some ice cream or whatever treat you like. Watch your favorite movie. Don't pick up that 1st drink. I've done it too many times and it's not worth it. Take this as a learning opportunity - you are learning how to get through a challenging day in sobriety. There will be more.

Enjoy the ice cream.

teardrop

dont want to do nothing and its too noisy in my house to relax

ScottFromWI

Go take a walk or get out of the house. Get yet yourself someplace you can relax. Drinking now will be a 100% guarantee that it will get worse.

MWL1983

These guys always cheer me up (if you're an AA)

Joe and Charlie AA Speakers "There is a Solution" from the Joe and Charlie Big Book Study - YouTube

Anna

Don't make a decision that you will regret. Getting through this tough day will give you the confidence that you can do it and next time it will be easier.

ReadyAtLast

Drinking will solve nothing and only make you feel a hell of a lot worse.

On some level you don't really want to drink or you wouldn't have come to SR .You'd have just picked up.

I've been where you are and drank, I woke up full of regret,remorse,shame,fear and even more anger. It isn't worth it

Early sobriety is full of crap days but drinking just puts us back to day 1. It will not alwyas be like this. If you don't drink you move forward and I promise you, as time goes on and you have a crap day the urge to drink doesn't appear. It's just a case of getting through this.

Do anything- eat, drink a softdrink, watch TV, read ,leave the house ,go for a drive if it's stressful at home. Just don't drink. Go to bed if necessary. Tomorrow you won'tfeel as bad . The difference between a bad day and a good day is only1 day.

You'll feel a hell of a lot worse if you drink . No one ever woke up in the morning glad they got pissed thenight before.
Eat something

EndGameNYC

Don't recall whether or not you're seeing someone about your OCD but, if not, now would be a good time to start.

least

What's the point? The point is staying sober so you'll start feeling much better. You're sober for a month, right? Give yourself more time to 'even out' your feelings. And for heaven's sake, don't give in and blow it all. It's not worth it.

Thepatman

I agree with everyone. Please don't give in.

Get a punching bag and destroy it if you need to.

Blessings

sicknote

I'm in exactly the same point as you!!!. This is how I feel right now!!! Why the heck should I bother!! grrrrrh! I feel so sad.

Why do I find it so difficult just to not drink?!! Why do I want to drink, but don't want to drink at the same time!?!? I'm frustrated that I can't drink!! I'm quite sure that most people don't get this annoyed that they can't drink?!?

I'm in the UK too! I'm going to go to bed and wake up tomorrow without a hangover. It's just one more evening. Tomorrow I might get waisted, but I'm not going to do it now.

I'm going to be honest, I was on the verge of cracking open the booze, then I read your post. I'm not going to crack.

Tomorrow is a different day, and I really do hope we feel better tomorrow!! Imagine how great we'll feel if we make it to tomorrow and we haven't had a drink!!!

Dee74

I think we get used to thinking in the immediate as alcoholics.
Feel bad...get drink...bam.

I had to learn to see a little farther afield in recovery - I may feel down today but I won;t always feel this way - 99% of the time I feel better the next day.

Early recovery is rough. It's rough on our bodies and our minds.
Guys like me who drank for years need a few months to get right.

We have to have a little trust that things will get better cos...they do

D

sicknote

SeaScape

I really wanted to drink yesterday. I told myself that I had been so "good." And then I realized that it isn't about being "good" or "bad." It's about who I want to be and I REALLY want to be emotionally together, responsible and healthy. I really want tomorrow to be as sober and real as today- even if it's crappy. It was so hard b/c I felt like I deserved champagne but I am really glad that I didn't drink. Other folks here are right. I believe them. It's really hard but I do.
I encourage you not to drink tonight.

ZeldaFan

My cravings are super strong tonight as they always are on Fridays. I really want to drink but I'm not going to. You have over a month and that is great! Stay strong.

Skye2

I really hope you guys got through the cravings. I have to admit, I took myself off to bed v. early last night because of the pesky things. It's now 3.30am and I've already had 8 hours sleep, but cravings have gone, day 27 begins and I feel SO relieved that I didn't cave in.
We can do this!!

sicknote

I made it to Saturday! Phew, that was hard!!! Hope you're ok teardrop?

Skye2 - I've been having a lot of early nights, sleeping a lot. Just going to bed helps you're UK too! Cool! I'm UK also

teardrop

yes i made it through too

butterfly33

Well done teardrop! And congrats on your 5 weeks, that's a huge accomplishment. I hope you're proud of yourself :-)

ZeldaFan

We made it! Well done all