Ummm... I guess I need to be here? It's day2...
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Ummm... I guess I need to be here? It's day2...
Day2- despite feeling like I have broken up with my best friend, I think I'm ok.I don't have my tv companion, my work associate, my partner in crime, Mr. Chardonnay. I miss him. But I feel good today. I don't have to talk myself out of having a hangover. I don't have to scoot next to my husband to see if he moves away (a sure sign I said something awful the night before). I don't have to check my texts or emails to make sure I didn't say something embarrassing or awful.I'm not looking over my shoulder for cops lurking in the shadows. I can actually pass a slow moving vehicle with out fear of "calling all cops" at 7am. I don't have wine on my breath. I remember what time I turned off the lamp: 11:23. I don't feel shame that I gave in to my friend that begged me to have just one with her. I didn't have to move things around in the trash can to make it appear like that was on old bottle and not one I bought 4 hours ago. I sort of have anxiety though in anticipation of a seizure or some other tragic episode brought on my long term alcohol abuse. Or maybe that is a craving... Oh ****. Maybe I am an alcoholic. At least I won't have to re- read the last few pages of a book I read last night which was really just an attempt to prove to myself I wasn't really drunk.
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Hi Jackie, glad that you said goodbye to Mr. Chardonnay. Good riddance! I totally get the checking your phone to see what embarrassing things you sent and to whom the night before. I do not miss that AT ALL. Welcome to SR 
to SR! If you start feeling badly please get medical help. Withdrawal can be dangerous. Malgudy - SS - 31-Aug-2013
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Hi Jackie... Welcome to SR. Congratulations on ditching your Chardonnay.... In my opinion you should see your doctor especially if you have been abusing alcohol for long time and if you are feeling of getting a Seizure...
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Oh my gosh.... I didn't consider that It may be in poor taste but I was only kidding about serious concerns about seizures. I tend to use humor when I'm anxious. I didn't mean to make light of anyone who has serious withdrawal symptoms. I just laugh about the way my mind exaggerates the smallest things.
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Hi, Jackie. Welcome! I would always wake up in a panic around 2-3 a.m. on my drinking nights. Not being able to sleep, I would run to my computer and start deleting ridiculous facebook posts, praying no one had been up to read them. My husband's nosy cousin seemed always to see them and comment on them, no matter what time my drunken soul decided to "outpour." Ugh. Do. Not. Miss.
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Welcome Jackie! That's quite a list - I can relate! Isn't it great to be free of it?
We're so glad you joined us. This is a great place to be - among those who really understand what you're going through. You can do it Jackie. You don't need that in your life - it brings nothing but misery.
We're so glad you joined us. This is a great place to be - among those who really understand what you're going through. You can do it Jackie.
You don't need that in your life - it brings nothing but misery.
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Mr. Chardonnay was a good friend of mine at one time too. Believe it or not, there is life in abundance without him by your side. It didn't seem possible to me 16 months ago. I was downing a 5L box every 3 days and most of that was over a 3-4 hr period at night. Now, the thought of it never crosses my mind. Stick with sobriety and you will get there too.
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