Acheleus

My dad is coming to see me and try to help me during this difficult time. My anxiety got out of control, I am scared all the time and alone too much. I apologize for posting negative things.

Dee74

I remember very well what it was like to be terrified and afraid - and drinking only seemed to make it worse not better.

I'm sure everyone here understands and remembers too Ach - just don't forget we're all on the same side

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Kaneda8888

I dont see any need for apologising. My understanding is that being able to voice your feelings is a major reason for these forums. Its better than picking up a drink. Give yourself a pat on the back for that !

Indenial618

You may be having horrible anxiety but you're still not drinking, and that in itself is progress. Don't apologize for how YOU feel. Hoping your Dad can give you the support you need.

longbeachone

This is a forum for support. Don't feel that you should apologize for asking for help! That's why we're all here for each other. I'm glad that you are getting some support from your family. I am pulling for you!

kadidee

I'm glad to hear that your dad is coming to visit. Thinking of you.

digdug

The first time my mom came to visit me in rehab, I could not stop shaking and crying. And I am a 31 year old male.

We didn't know what to say to each other. I couldn't even get out the words, "I'm sorry." It was awkward, scary, and emotionally draining. But it was the beginning of forming a new relationship, far better than when I was drinking and drugging.

Your dad is coming to HELP you. To me, that says a lot.

I wish you the best of luck!

Acheleus

Thank you I am going to get in bed now and try to calm down. I'm just alone and scared.

Acheleus

I just keep crying and they game me Ativan at the hospital. I thought I was having a nervous breakdown.

warrens

It is the disease talking, not you. We are all too familiar with saying and doing things far out of character. Your apology shows yours.

Best to you. Anxiety is horrid. My killer anxiety disappeared with sobriety.

Namaste,

Warren

kadidee

It's okay to cry, Ach. You're going through a lot right now. But you're doing good--you're not drinking, you're reaching out here for support, and you let your dad know that you need him to come visit. Try to get some good rest, and hopefully things will look a bit brighter in the morning.

digdug

Seconded that it's ok to cry. I'm tearing up just thinking about what you must be going through. But know you're never alone when you are in the thoughts and prayers of so many wonderful people on this forum.

You will get through this.

Acheleus

I will be seeing my counselor in the morning so maybe she can tell me what to do. My anxiety is out of control but I have medication for it. Today I was paralyzed and just worried myself sick until now I can't sleep. I don't want to feel so alone and isolated any more. I might go walking if I cannot sleep.

kadidee

I hope that the medication helps some with the anxiety, Ach. Try to breathe and focus on seeing your counselor tomorrow and then your dad coming. You're going to get through this.

warrens

When things are like this, all we can do is the next right thing. Get in the habit of doing that which is best for you. Sounds corny, but it is like compound interest, growing in benefit. Exercise is good. Exercise is very, very good.

Namaste,

Warren

Acheleus

I just want to feel normal I am burned out .

least

Never be afraid to ask for help. That's why we're here you know. You might feel alone but we are here with you in spirit.

hayley86

Glad you are getting some support Acheleus.Things will get better. Sending best wishes to you.

ImperfectlyMe

I'm glad your reaching out for help. There is so much more out there for you. Take a look at your diet, I'm not saying it the cure all but things you are and are not consuming may be altering your moods. There is no doubt you're dealing with a whole lot if depression/anxiety! I'm glad you have your dads support. Get proactive in your total body recovery. Don't be a victim of yourself be your own advocate. Let us know how the councilor goes

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^^ link for depression nutrition

lorelei

((((Ach)))) empower yourself to be what you deserve xx