Hi, im Dina, and im an alcoholic
Hope for change
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: Long Meadow, MA
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Hi, im Dina, and im an alcoholic
Well there's no getting around it. No matter how hard I try to avoid the facts. I will no longer sit in aa and try to tell myself that i cant relate to anyone in the room because im not drunk every day. I will no longer tell myself that i dont have a drinking problem, its just a problem when i drink. i will no longer tell myself that one day, after enough sobriety, i will be able to control my drinking. I will no longer say just one or just a sip to try. I will no longer tell my friends that I'm just not drinking now, or pretend to be drinking. Because I can't drink, I will never have just one and if I do a few times in a row I will convince myself I'm cured and go on a binge. I will tell people that I do not drink because I believe I have absolutely no control when it comes to alcohol. Because I am an alcoholic, I always have been, and I always will be. I surrender.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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Hi Dina
For my my healing started when I broke down and cried and admitted, without reservation, what I was.
I know you can make this be the same turning point for you - there really is a better life out there, waiting...
D
For my my healing started when I broke down and cried and admitted, without reservation, what I was.
I know you can make this be the same turning point for you - there really is a better life out there, waiting...
D
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Join Date: Aug 2007
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Hi Dina. I loved that powerful post. It took me decades to finally admit those same things. Coming to this realization is actually freeing. No more exhausting attempts at moderation or fooling yourself that it'll ever be manageable. Be proud of yourself Dina. You don't need it in your life.
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Surrendering is a powerful thing. And once I did, it was a relief. There was a program with steps and a way of life for me to follow and for that I am extremely grateful. Glad to have you along for the journey
Hope for change
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: Long Meadow, MA
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Hey all just checking in, feeling a little bit better today when yesterday, where all I did was cry and sleep. This morning I went to the gym and did some research on how "how to survive a relapse" pretty much ways to not succumb to the guilt and shame and not spend another day crying in bed. It's def hard not to beat yourself up. I'm trying to be grateful for the relapse because the only thing that happened was I made an ass out of myself and I felt like crap yesterday . I harmed no one physically or did anything that would drastically effect my life. And the result of this incident is that I'm recommitting myself to sobriety by first admitting to myself and others that I am an alcoholic and have probably been on for the past 4 years maybe even 5. And I will also be returning to aa and posting on here every few days. I think I relapsed because I got some time under my belt with sobriety and I thought I conquered all my demons. I let my guard down and it was all over. But today's a new day and I will not focus on how long it's been since I had a drink I will just say today, I am sober. And I will work the 12 steps every day for the rest of my life. Because I will never not have an issue with alcohol. And if I'm sober for 20 years that dosent mean I'm conquered the disease. Ill still have to put in work. I'm ready. I'm finally ready to do this and be at peace
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: NC
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Hi Itsmytime. Don't beat yourself up too much. If we were perfect none of us would be here. I think everyone disappoints themselves. We just have to learn from our mistakes and move forward in the right direction. Easier said than done but well worth the effort.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Bourne, MA
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Good luck Dina. Great first step. I'm right there with you but I think you have a full day on me!
I can tell you this much: Right now, today, is the easiest it will ever be to quit. It only gets harder. Try to focus on keeping a good thing going!
I can tell you this much: Right now, today, is the easiest it will ever be to quit. It only gets harder. Try to focus on keeping a good thing going!
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