Hi, im Dina, and im an alcoholic
Well there's no getting around it. No matter how hard I try to avoid the facts. I will no longer sit in aa and try to tell myself that i cant relate to anyone in the room because im not drunk every day. I will no longer tell myself that i dont have a drinking problem, its just a problem when i drink. i will no longer tell myself that one day, after enough sobriety, i will be able to control my drinking. I will no longer say just one or just a sip to try. I will no longer tell my friends that I'm just not drinking now, or pretend to be drinking. Because I can't drink, I will never have just one and if I do a few times in a row I will convince myself I'm cured and go on a binge. I will tell people that I do not drink because I believe I have absolutely no control when it comes to alcohol. Because I am an alcoholic, I always have been, and I always will be. I surrender.