BoyRacer

I am losing control, I believe. I am afraid, angry, and very lonely.. Where do I go from here? I am sliding away from myself, inside, and it hurts.

I just want to change, that's all and its just NOT working. I am becoming addicted to alcohol I think, and ive never felt more alone..

What does one do? I feel like a shameful piece of nothing, Literally. HOW can I get back to being me.

Can anyone even hear me?

Nirvana1

You are here so you are not alone. Read as much as you can around Sober Recovery and take it all in without any bias. Wishing you luck!

Nonsensical

I hear ya.

Do you have a plan to stop drinking?

Lightning Bug

I hear you.
I have been there - and so have most of our friends here.
Have you made out your asset list? Listing out all the best things about you?
It helped me to really see the value of myself, instead of the negatives.

You are NOT a shameful piece of nothing.

BoyRacer

I want to be the best me I can be. Life's daily grind is just getting to me. IM depressed., afraid, and I have no guidance and don't know who to turn to, its just hurting, Badly. Ive never been this bad off, ive been hinging for....a few weeks? A day off in between, maybe but now the wedge has fully forced itself in. What have I done?!?

Does anyone know what I mean? That sense of losing yourself?

AugustWest11

Yea; that was what I was trying to do for 29 years was lose myself .... I wasn't comfortable w\ me I think . so yea people are here and been there .. I have been sober a month now and things are looking "different" I can't say better at this point w\ everything on my personal plate right now; but they are looking clearer which is such a help right now; if that makes sense to you .. Wish ya the Best of Luck ...

ScottFromWI

I think most of us know exactly what you mean BR. I know for me when alcohol became bigger than me and bigger than anything else in my life, I knew it was time to quit.

Quitting is hard, but far from impossible. SR is a great place to find out how - read lots and ask lots of questions. Some use this site alone for their recovery, others need more structured/local help like AA or Counseling. Depending on how long and how much you've been drinking, outpatient or even inpatient Detox might be something to explore.

A great first step would be to see your doctor or a local drug/alcohol clinic and see if you are OK to detox on your own. There are medicines and programs that can help if you are not.

Bottom line, you can do this if you really want to. And we are here to help.

Dee74

Good to see you again BoyRacer.

I lost myself so completely I forgot about ever being someone else but the neighbourhood drunk.

We tend to really overcomplicate the process but in essence it's simple. Stop drinking. Find the right support to stay sober.

simple - not easy...but neither is the life we lead as drinkers.

Find support - make the lifestyle changes you need to make.
You can do this, BoyRacer

D