60 days. Holy crap.
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60 days. Holy crap.
Just picked up my sixty day chip and I am a mess. Overwhelmed, cried through the meeting, still dissolving into tears intermittently. I've been in and out of the program for about 7 years (counting my last ”relapse," which kept me out for 4 of those seven) but I've never gotten sixty consecutive days sober. I'm amazed and also disappointed I think because I built it into this huge milestone and lo and behold, here I am, still crazy, still alcoholic, just not drunk.
But overall I think it feels good. Thanks for letting me share.?
But overall I think it feels good. Thanks for letting me share.?
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Originally Posted by wir 
Just picked up my sixty day chip and I am a mess. Overwhelmed, cried through the meeting, still dissolving into tears intermittently. I've been in and out of the program for about 7 years (counting my last ”relapse," which kept me out for 4 of those seven) but I've never gotten sixty consecutive days sober. I'm amazed and also disappointed I think because I built it into this huge milestone and lo and behold, here I am, still crazy, still alcoholic, just not drunk.
But overall I think it feels good. Thanks for letting me share.?
But overall I think it feels good. Thanks for letting me share.?
glad you made it to 60 days
have you gotten a big book?
and do you have a sponsor?
the recovery is in the steps
and it takes me actively working them, with a good solid sponsor that has already worked them
we can not expect to have it all together in 60 days
well we cam but we will be sorely disappointed
this is a life long process, one day at time
we did not get sick in 60 days and 60 days sure will not make us well at 60 days!
go a little easy on yourself
step back and look to see what you have missed
don't drink
go to meetings
and read the big book
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Hi Grammy deb! Thank you. I do have a sponsor and a big book. I haven't started the steps yet beyond admitting I was powerless, but I'm planning to start working them with my sponsor soon. Working on my 90 in 90 now. 
And seriously, thanks for your reply. I need to remember this isn't a quick fix and I'm okay where I'm at.
And seriously, thanks for your reply. I need to remember this isn't a quick fix and I'm okay where I'm at.
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Welcome to SR and congratulations on 60 days!! I'm pretty sure I was still floundering around (though clean/sober) at 60 days, the emotions and behaviors were like a roller coaster.
It gets better, it really does. I'm at a bit over 6 years, and each year I thought how great it was at what had changed (for the good). The next year, I found it was even better? I've finally learned to just do the next right thing, get all the support you can, and recovery gets better and better
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
It gets better, it really does. I'm at a bit over 6 years, and each year I thought how great it was at what had changed (for the good). The next year, I found it was even better? I've finally learned to just do the next right thing, get all the support you can, and recovery gets better and better
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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Congratulations!!! Sixty days sober is AWESOME!!
You are not alone, I was a basket case, wait...I still am a basket case
At 2 months I was mad at the world, had huge guilt and shame, and felt like it may never get better. But it does!! Grammydeb is right, be gentle to yourself. Reward yourself for the small victories. Try to keep your thoughts in today, not yesterday or tomorrow. I suggest you get busier working the steps. Some progress would do you good!!
Welcome to SR, keep coming back!!
You are not alone, I was a basket case, wait...I still am a basket case
At 2 months I was mad at the world, had huge guilt and shame, and felt like it may never get better. But it does!! Grammydeb is right, be gentle to yourself. Reward yourself for the small victories. Try to keep your thoughts in today, not yesterday or tomorrow. I suggest you get busier working the steps. Some progress would do you good!!
Welcome to SR, keep coming back!!
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Originally Posted by wir
Hi Grammy deb! Thank you. I do have a sponsor and a big book. I haven't started the steps yet beyond admitting I was powerless, but I'm planning to start working them with my sponsor soon. Working on my 90 in 90 now.
And seriously, thanks for your reply. I need to remember this isn't a quick fix and I'm okay where I'm at.
And seriously, thanks for your reply. I need to remember this isn't a quick fix and I'm okay where I'm at.
they are the heartbeat of recovery
when I work the steps I am in the solution not the problem
big hugs to you!!
deb
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That is amazing!! Keep doing what you are doing!
The Big Book tells us that "Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughlyfollowed our path." Looking around the rooms at the sobriety they have and what it used to be like for us is proof of that.
Way to go!!
The Big Book tells us that "Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughlyfollowed our path." Looking around the rooms at the sobriety they have and what it used to be like for us is proof of that.
Way to go!!
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Putting the drink down was made a bit easier than for a lot of ppl compliments of a judge and an alcohol tether - that ensured I couldn't drink for 9 months. As I was in that first 9 months though, it started to become increasingly apparent that there was a LOT more "wrong" with me than just the drinking.
My emotions were all over the map, I was frequently depressed - which was often followed by extreme happiness (very common among alkies), my mind would NOT slow down, constant racing thoughts, full of hate (mostly of myself).....etc etc.
It was quite a relief to know 1. all that junk was common 2. it was indicative of alcoholism. and 3 that the steps/program were designed to give me a way past all of it. I sure didn't think it was going to work.......but it did.
My emotions were all over the map, I was frequently depressed - which was often followed by extreme happiness (very common among alkies), my mind would NOT slow down, constant racing thoughts, full of hate (mostly of myself).....etc etc.
It was quite a relief to know 1. all that junk was common 2. it was indicative of alcoholism. and 3 that the steps/program were designed to give me a way past all of it. I sure didn't think it was going to work.......but it did.
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