When will I hit bottom?
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When will I hit bottom?
Last night I went to the movies and brought a small bottle of vodka with me. Then I got the brilliant idea to go to a casino. Lost $300 and got cut off at the bar. Took a cab home and now I'm hurting. What's my solution? Get more alcohol to make myself feel better! Oh and I set up a play date today for my daughter. Wtf is wrong with me? I have 2 small kids and I'm doing all this irresponsible crap. I just want to be better.
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"I just want to be better. "
thats good, but do you want to be better without alcohol? are you willing to go to any lengths to get better? are you willing to put in the footwork?
to me, bottom is death. it doesnt get any lower than that. you can step off the elevator at anytime and the soooner the better!
PLEASE want and be willing to do whatever ya gotta do to stop drinking.
thats good, but do you want to be better without alcohol? are you willing to go to any lengths to get better? are you willing to put in the footwork?
to me, bottom is death. it doesnt get any lower than that. you can step off the elevator at anytime and the soooner the better!
PLEASE want and be willing to do whatever ya gotta do to stop drinking.
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Unfortunately for far too many the bottom is death. AA save my life when all else failed. You can get off the alcoholic roller coaster anytime you want but you have to want to. Until then there's just more of the same and worse.
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I've had my husband take my id and bank card, I've gone to meetings, but the atheist in me gets irritated every time I go. I don't know what else to do. In going to go to urgent care and ask about Antabuse.
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Originally Posted by amandaw 
I've had my husband take my id and bank card, I've gone to meetings, but the atheist in me gets irritated every time I go. I don't know what else to do. In going to go to urgent care and ask about Antabuse.
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The roller coaster ride ends when we say it ends. For myself, I finally just had enough, I couldn't do it anymore.
I was kind of turned off by the God talk in AA too, but realized it was just another excuse I was making not to go or do anything about my drinking (I'm just speaking for me here).
You can still go to the meetings, take what you need and leave the rest behind. The important thing for me was to be around people with the same problem as me. There is also Women for Sobriety and Smart Recovery. Those are also worth looking into.
I was kind of turned off by the God talk in AA too, but realized it was just another excuse I was making not to go or do anything about my drinking (I'm just speaking for me here).
You can still go to the meetings, take what you need and leave the rest behind. The important thing for me was to be around people with the same problem as me. There is also Women for Sobriety and Smart Recovery. Those are also worth looking into.
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I understand that I'm making an excuse not to go. I get really anxious in public and they always call on newcomers at the meetings I go to. Another excuse. I know. Getting ready to go to urgent care now. I know I'm not supposed to ask medical advice on here, but has anyone here had success with Antabuse?
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Originally Posted by amandaw
I've had my husband take my id and bank card, I've gone to meetings, but the atheist in me gets irritated every time I go. I don't know what else to do. In going to go to urgent care and ask about Antabuse.
-Find a local SMART meeting, or Lifering, or Women for sobriety...
-Get some books on recovery and get reading til you find something that clicks with you. There is a great list in the stickies.
-Talk to your doctor. There are lots of options available, not just antabuse.
Personally I think this is an inside job, no drug or lack of money would ever stop me drinking long term. You have to want to quit for yourself not because others want you to. The concept of hitting bottom, as others have said, is death. You don't have to wait til something really bad happens to quit. It sounds like it's bad enough already to do something about it. You can do this. Have faith in yourself x
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Have you looked for any SMART meetings in your area? Completely different secular, science based recovery program.
People say you can only do this for yourself, but I disagree. You should also do it for your kids, you'll be affecting them negatively no matter how much you try not to or how young they are.
People say you can only do this for yourself, but I disagree. You should also do it for your kids, you'll be affecting them negatively no matter how much you try not to or how young they are.
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A lot of people ask about Antabuse and naltrexone on here... Kinda wish it had a forum. (Maybe it does and i'm not seeing it?) I Havent taken them. But I've read some studies and they seem to be well studied good treatments. Try a search on here for Antabuse and see what pops up. Good job reaching out for help!! Good luck today- let us know how it goes.
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Drinking makes people do stupid things. I should know. I am the stupidest fool you will ever meet when I drink.
That's why I had to quit.
Speaking of Movies. A while back I slammed a pint of Bourbon right before I went to see Django Unchained. I was so excited about seeing it, then I slept through half the movie. What an idiot I was.
That's why I had to quit.
Speaking of Movies. A while back I slammed a pint of Bourbon right before I went to see Django Unchained. I was so excited about seeing it, then I slept through half the movie. What an idiot I was.
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I'm in the waiting room now. I went to see Gatsby last night. It feels like alcohol use is glamorized on TV and in the movies. Everyone is ALWAYS drinking. It feels like I can't escape it. Boo
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I think you only know you're at the bottom when you start to climb out of the hole.
That for me was when it was easier to quit -- despite the pain of detox, the cravings, and fear -- than to keep living my death-in-life.
As for AA, I would say that rather than focus on parts that irritate you, if you go you should try to focus on what you can learn from. If you're an atheist, then look at other people's gods as their ways of coping, which can't harm you.
That for me was when it was easier to quit -- despite the pain of detox, the cravings, and fear -- than to keep living my death-in-life.
As for AA, I would say that rather than focus on parts that irritate you, if you go you should try to focus on what you can learn from. If you're an atheist, then look at other people's gods as their ways of coping, which can't harm you.
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