1 year!!!
1 year!!!
Hi all,
I had a year a week ago. I don't come to this site very often anymore but this site was the first place I turned to years ago when alcohol was becoming a problem. So, I wanted to share the news.
I HAVE ONE YEAR OF BEING SOBER.
Those of you that are struggling, those of you that are hungover today, those of you that can't seem to string along more than a week or two of sobriety, hang in there. I was the exact same way.
The reality is I am, and have always been, the problem. Not my job, kids, God, wife, ex wife, boss', parents, siblings, etc... me. I am, and will always be the problem.
I drank at feelings even though I didn't realize it at the time. I drank because it was the only thing that ever made me feel complete. Nothing made me feel like drinking did. But the problem was when I drank I couldn't stop. So, what started out as a way to make me complete, turned out to be the thing that caused much of my problems. I was so ill-equipped to deal with "life on life's terms" I was stuck.
I had to find a way out. I went to AA and they told me that a higer power would fix my problem and I didn't belive it. They said God could do for me what I couldn't do for myself and I thought it was absurd. For years, I couldn't see God anywhere.... now I see God EVERYWHERE.
My perception of life was the problem. I only saw it through my on selfish / self centered glasses. It's said in AA when we have the awakening it's like seeing the world through a new pair of glasses - and that's how it is for me.
Getting and staying sober requires many things, but if I had to sum it up in one word it's about honesty. Honesty for me started with am I AN ALCOHOLIC? Yes or no?
It's said if you try and quit and can't stay stopped; and if you can't accurately predict how many drinks you're going to have in a given night, you're probably an alcoholic It's really that simple.... If the answer is yes, which in my case it was, then it's true forever and ever and ever and ever and ever... there is no going back.
That was the start for me... From there I got a sponsor. Started praying (even though I had no idea what I was praying to - still don't most of the time), worked the steps, and day by day it got better. I'd say somewhere around the 7 month mark the metal obsession of alcohol left me.
I would go through an entire weekend and not even think of drinking.
That truly is a miracle.
So, 1 year after I quit drinking I am happy to report that I am happy today. I am grateful. I am hopeful. I am sober.
Thank you SR for being the springboard I needed 6 years ago that started my road to receovery.
Best of luck everyone!!!
RW
I had a year a week ago. I don't come to this site very often anymore but this site was the first place I turned to years ago when alcohol was becoming a problem. So, I wanted to share the news.
I HAVE ONE YEAR OF BEING SOBER.
Those of you that are struggling, those of you that are hungover today, those of you that can't seem to string along more than a week or two of sobriety, hang in there. I was the exact same way.
The reality is I am, and have always been, the problem. Not my job, kids, God, wife, ex wife, boss', parents, siblings, etc... me. I am, and will always be the problem.
I drank at feelings even though I didn't realize it at the time. I drank because it was the only thing that ever made me feel complete. Nothing made me feel like drinking did. But the problem was when I drank I couldn't stop. So, what started out as a way to make me complete, turned out to be the thing that caused much of my problems. I was so ill-equipped to deal with "life on life's terms" I was stuck.
I had to find a way out. I went to AA and they told me that a higer power would fix my problem and I didn't belive it. They said God could do for me what I couldn't do for myself and I thought it was absurd. For years, I couldn't see God anywhere.... now I see God EVERYWHERE.
My perception of life was the problem. I only saw it through my on selfish / self centered glasses. It's said in AA when we have the awakening it's like seeing the world through a new pair of glasses - and that's how it is for me.
Getting and staying sober requires many things, but if I had to sum it up in one word it's about honesty. Honesty for me started with am I AN ALCOHOLIC? Yes or no?
It's said if you try and quit and can't stay stopped; and if you can't accurately predict how many drinks you're going to have in a given night, you're probably an alcoholic It's really that simple.... If the answer is yes, which in my case it was, then it's true forever and ever and ever and ever and ever... there is no going back.
That was the start for me... From there I got a sponsor. Started praying (even though I had no idea what I was praying to - still don't most of the time), worked the steps, and day by day it got better. I'd say somewhere around the 7 month mark the metal obsession of alcohol left me.
I would go through an entire weekend and not even think of drinking.
That truly is a miracle.
So, 1 year after I quit drinking I am happy to report that I am happy today. I am grateful. I am hopeful. I am sober.
Thank you SR for being the springboard I needed 6 years ago that started my road to receovery.
Best of luck everyone!!!
RW
CONGRATS Reggie!!! I'm sure you're excited & thrilled @ making it that long sober
I can't wait for mine next mth...speechless as to how I've made it thru a yr inspite all the pain & heartache
But you're rite...it does get easier & better
I can't wait for mine next mth...speechless as to how I've made it thru a yr inspite all the pain & heartache
But you're rite...it does get easier & better
Thanks reggiewayne for sharing your story. I am 1/12th of the way towards where you are now and am inspired by such stories. I hope your life moving forward is full of joy and happiness which is the end result of your efforts. Keep us posted as you go
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