not yet in heaven, neither in hell. i'm stuck in purgatory...
not yet in heaven, neither in hell. i'm stuck in purgatory...
Where i started? everyday drinking. i couldn't imagine going to sleep without being passed out. For 5 full years!
4 months passed since i wanted a change...
I thought i could become anyone i want and do anything i want! Alcoholism is nothing i can't manage.
Well, i was wrong!!!
Here i am, 4 months later. I don't drink daily now. In the begining, i could have 2 or 3 days sober followed by 4 or 5 days driking as it is the last day on earth!
Where i am? Not far, unfortunately...
I can have now 5 days sober, but the urge crushes me and i go on 1day bender (especially saturday evening, unplanned evening), followed by 2 or 3 days of deep depression.
I feel now beyond sadness. I want to escape this vicious circle, but i don't have an idea how
4 months passed since i wanted a change...
I thought i could become anyone i want and do anything i want! Alcoholism is nothing i can't manage.
Well, i was wrong!!!
Here i am, 4 months later. I don't drink daily now. In the begining, i could have 2 or 3 days sober followed by 4 or 5 days driking as it is the last day on earth!
Where i am? Not far, unfortunately...
I can have now 5 days sober, but the urge crushes me and i go on 1day bender (especially saturday evening, unplanned evening), followed by 2 or 3 days of deep depression.
I feel now beyond sadness. I want to escape this vicious circle, but i don't have an idea how
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