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Anxious
It's 8:56 am and I'm feeling anxious. My wife has been able to call me once a day, usually in the morning but today she has a court date today. Court shall determine if she is going back for life as the state is asking for, or come home after whatever sanctions they impose. Anywho, she may not get the opportunity to call home because she is in transit or they don't let herout of her cell until the transport comes or...
And so, though her fate is determined today, I can't find out till she calls and regardless of whether she can call today or not - I probably won't find out what her fate is until tomorrow because even if she can call today, it'll be before the closed hearing.
She said goodbye yesterday. It was cryptic as our conversation is monitored, but it nevertheless was goodbye in the event that she gets life. She's done twenty-four years; she isn't going to do another twenty-four. I knew that about her already...so, basically waiting to hear whether or not she's got the death penalty...and I can't figure a way I'll find out before tomorrow and the idea that I may have spoken to her for the last time yesterday is starting to push aside any other thoughts and any attempt to stay in the here and now.
And so, though her fate is determined today, I can't find out till she calls and regardless of whether she can call today or not - I probably won't find out what her fate is until tomorrow because even if she can call today, it'll be before the closed hearing.
She said goodbye yesterday. It was cryptic as our conversation is monitored, but it nevertheless was goodbye in the event that she gets life. She's done twenty-four years; she isn't going to do another twenty-four. I knew that about her already...so, basically waiting to hear whether or not she's got the death penalty...and I can't figure a way I'll find out before tomorrow and the idea that I may have spoken to her for the last time yesterday is starting to push aside any other thoughts and any attempt to stay in the here and now.
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Courage, legna. Bravery is at its best when needed most. Fear can be ignored, dismissed, placed aside, once recognised. I'm so sorry for you and your wife's present challenges. Hold on, seek a deeper inner peace thru this storm, legna.
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12:48 and I just hung up the phone. The state has rejected the recommendation of the Department of Corrections. Long story incredibly short, she will be coming home next week while awaiting a treatment bed.
I'd like to personally fly around the world and give each of you a hug for the support that you've given me. It has meant more to me and has been a greater source of strength than I can adequately convey. Thank you.
I'd like to personally fly around the world and give each of you a hug for the support that you've given me. It has meant more to me and has been a greater source of strength than I can adequately convey. Thank you.
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Im in a very emotional state myself, but I started to cry when I read your good news. I can only imagine how you must feel to know she has another chance to embrace all thats good in life. And you have another chance to embrace her.
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Legna,
I just now read your story in the "my story" thread. Awesomely interesting, surprising, and powerful. Karma is so often such a beautiful experience, eh?!
You're a truly well rewarded, lucky man. It didn't come free, but it did come, gracing you with real freedom. Awesome beyond words. It looks good on you!
So very good to hear the wonderful news about your wife, legna. Way awesome, again, eh!!
I just now read your story in the "my story" thread. Awesomely interesting, surprising, and powerful. Karma is so often such a beautiful experience, eh?!
You're a truly well rewarded, lucky man. It didn't come free, but it did come, gracing you with real freedom. Awesome beyond words. It looks good on you!
So very good to hear the wonderful news about your wife, legna. Way awesome, again, eh!!
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Dear legna,
I was feeling suicidal (briefly) yesterday...coming on here to see what SR people are going through / getting through, and THIS - YOUR incredibly painful story....well, I just bow down.
You and your wife are such an inspiration to many of us, I believe.
Big hugs from me in Aus to you guys.
x
Vic
I was feeling suicidal (briefly) yesterday...coming on here to see what SR people are going through / getting through, and THIS - YOUR incredibly painful story....well, I just bow down.
You and your wife are such an inspiration to many of us, I believe.
Big hugs from me in Aus to you guys.
x
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Legna,
When I saw Robby's post, I read your story in the Stories of Recovery section. 'Miracles' are rare in this life, and sometimes are miracles of coincidence, but miracles nonetheless. My heart is overwhelmed by your story and the wonderful news about your wife. Thank you so much for sharing.
RDB...the 'plus3' are my wife and kids.
When I saw Robby's post, I read your story in the Stories of Recovery section. 'Miracles' are rare in this life, and sometimes are miracles of coincidence, but miracles nonetheless. My heart is overwhelmed by your story and the wonderful news about your wife. Thank you so much for sharing.
RDB...the 'plus3' are my wife and kids.
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