PinotNOmore

So I have no trouble not drinking for a day or two. I feel great, even proud... then the next day comes and "bam" I'm buying booze again! Not much,but enough to get me "tipsy". I absolutely HATE how I feel when intoxicated which is why I can't understand my desire to drink. If there is such a thing as an "alcoholic voice" I certainly have one and the voice is strong. I truly HATE IT!! I'm so frustrated right now I could cry!

YouRmySunshine

We drink because we are alcoholics.
We are powerless over alcohol.
Truth is most people can not do this on their own, They need some sort of a support system. And to be in contact with those that have been through this before us, to guide us & help us understand, so in turn we can do the same for the next alcoholic that is still suffering.
You started here, hope you can read some great stuff here & keep accepting & asking for help, IT IS OUT THERE, if your willing to ask & accept.
Peace
~Jules

Percussion

I just started day one again today, on my way home I passed a gas station and the craving started. A feeling, an obsession, with the idea of getting bear. I just distracted myself and drove on by and once by the thought of turning around was in my head for the next 6 miles. It is never fun and I have only ever been able to go about a week until I feel "proud" and feel like "rewarding myself". Of course once I do I realize I hate it and the process starts all over, sometimes lasting one day, sometimes a week, but never true recovery. I am so sick of it too. I hate it.

-R-

1newcreation

Hi Girl,
I undstd to some extent u're dillema & frustration coz I've relapsed before. My question to you is do you have a sponsor, are you working the steps, going to meetings etc I'm determined to not go back coz the pain is not worth it! I love sobriety & have made it my top priority..Make a decision that you will stick w/ it, get w/ it, you might just get it!
Wish you the best

Dee74

Posting here everyday helped me rack up the days Bamagirl...its much harder to give into that impulse when you put some time into fighting I think

Welcome to SR

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