dragon12

Well I'm 5 days sober and so pleased with myself. Apart from withdrawals I feel great...lots of energy and lots of enthusiasm. However, there is something nagging me at the back of my mind.......something telling me that I really did enjoy the drink, really enjoyed myself when I was sozzled, really looked forward to my afternoon/evenings. On one level I can rationalise, tell myself that the alcohol was destroying my health, my days were spent recovering from the night before, the blackouts etc. etc and then the nagging begins.

gonzo4419

Hi dragon, google 'AVRT crash course', I'm very glad I learned of it here. Couldn't believe how I could relate to what it was saying for just these things.

dragon12

Thanks gonzo, Just saw a short video on YouTube......looks interesting I'll read some more.

Toss

Hi Dragon,

I went to this site Rational Recovery and read the crash course, it made so much sense to me.

Toss

gonzo4419

This was the site I found here, been reading it a few times a day actually.

Rational Recovery | The Crash Course On AVRT

I'm slowly starting to use it for the smoking also.

Edit: Toss beat me too it. Oh, and congrats on Day 5!

dragon12

Thanks everyone
It makes sense to me also. I have done this to myself. I really enjoy the buzz that the alcohol gives me but I also know that it is not worth the impact on my health and relationships. I've just been through the crash course quickly, but I need to go through it again - really taking my time and absorbing it. Glad its helped you guys. I have been trying to muster up courage to go to AA but somehow, it just doesn't sit right with me.

Xune

The fact that alcohol was slowly destroying everything good in my life trumps any pleasure I received from getting loaded.

Delilah1

I began reading the Rational Recovery book yesterday. Must be something in the air here in SR.

Toss

I just bought a Nook and I want to download the book if it's available. Either way, I need to read it.

Toss

dragon12

Yes, maybe we should give ourselves a pre Christmas gift of the AVRT book and read it1

freshstart57

I read the Crash Course from the Rational Recovery website, it's free and available *now*, and it took me a long ways in my sobriety. I did eventually buy and read the larger book, and it was very helpful too, it put a nice big bow on my Big Plan to never drink again.

I recommend checking out the website and the freebie, it just might be what you are looking for.