Delilah1

I am home from work today because I feel like everything has caught up with me. I know I need to stop drinking for my kids, my job, and most importantly me, and I can't seem to do so on my own.

This week work has been stressful and then I have come home and popped a bottle of wine each night. I feel short with my kids and constantly on the edge. I called the addiction number for my insurance and they open at 8:00. I plan on calling and trying to get in today. I have also found a meeting at 10:30 for women only. I have thought about going to meetings for s long time, but never have. I plan on going to this meeting unless I have an appointment at that time.

I am so mad at myself that I keep saying I am going to stop, and then I don't. I hope that by seeing a therapist, and attending meetings I will have the support I need. So for now I am sitting here and using this forum to get support. Thank you for listening. I would love to hear from some of you that have been here.

Sapling

I think going to the meeting will be great for you....It was the best thing I've ever done. Let us know how it goes...You'll meet some great people that want to help you.

2granddaughters

Alcoholics Anonymous saved my life.

Good luck.

Bob R

doggonecarl

Welcome back to SR. If you want to quit, you have to make use of all the help you can get. Take advantage of all of them. Including SR. Don't bail out. Post your struggles here, you'll get lots of support.

You WILL find yourself rationalizing drinking. It's how the addiction works. Fight through the urges.

It will only get worse if you continue drinking.

Anna

Hi,

I hope that you do whatever it takes for you to get and to stay sober. I have found that SR is my lifeline and I always find inspiration and hope here.

Delilah1

Thanks, I have done the rationalizing thing for too long. I will definitely use this site for support.

SDSurfn

The AA community is alive and well all over San Diego. I recommend going to a meeting.

You will be welcomed, and will meet some of the friendliest people you have ever met. And they will understand you like no one else.

All the best,

SD

IndaMiricale

Try not to be to mad and beat yourself up for wanting to quit and not. And trying to do it on your own. I know I was there many times.

I am happy to hear of the things you are doing now, thats what is important. Go have fun and relax at the meeting. As stated before you will find the nicest people in the world in those rooms..

AA way of life has saved this alcoholic from my way of thinking..

heath480

Good news that you plan on attending an AA meeting.Look forward to hearing how it went.

dSober

All great advice here Delilah. Go to the meeting. And keep coming back, here and there.

Extrochris

Make the meetings, if I could make meetings right now I definitely would because they help so much, but at the moment I have no possible way of attending until I get to treatment.

tomsteve

good to hear!! when ya go, please ask for a copy of the big book.

Delilah1

I have an appointment at 11:00, need to be there at 10:30 to do a computer questionnaire. I am feeling good about taking this step, yet, frightened at the same time. I will post and let you know how it goes. I am also going to see if there is a meeting later on today. Thank you again for the support. I need it!!!!

IndaMiricale

Scared and nervous all totally normal.. Its a big change in your life.... But it truly is better than living in active alcoholism..


You going to do great.. keep it up, and keep posting.

Dee74

Welcome to SR Delilah

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sugarbear1

Alcoholics Anonymous San Diego Central Office

If you didn't make the noon or 12:30 meetings, you have 4 pm through 10 pm this evening, and then there's tomorrow 6:30 am through 10 pm....

YOU can do this for YOU!!

ReadyAndAble

Welcome back, Delilah. Good to see another San Diegan here. You can do it—and you'll be so glad you did!!

instant

I went round in circles until I got out. I had tried and failed a few times, and also had many attempts that never got off the ground. It is possible if you keep at it. Embracing sobriety was the best thing I ever did.

MythOfSisyphus

For me at least, the hardest part was cutting through all the excuses I had for drinking and making the decision to stop. That part took me 20 years! Compared to that the not drinking has been easy!

Welcome to SR! This is a great place, a real boon to someone trying to change their life.

dSober

Great signatuire MythOfSisyphus. Glad your choice became crystal clear and you made the right one. If one drinks too long, one can no longer see it that clearly. Many have made the wrong one.