notsleeping

Wish me luck. Will be an entire day with the kids, its when i get home tonight and try to wind down that scares me, old routines.... The hubby already bought me a bottle of wine last night, i told him i was too tired,which i was thankfully, i didnt get home from my sons game til just after 10, they lost by the way. Idk, it wasnt tnhat hrd to turn it down. I cant trust that i always will, ive been this far before. I have more and better support now though. I will try to stay on my toes today and watch for trigger and stay away from them.... Humm.

TorontoGuy28

You need to be honest and upfront about your decision to live a sober life, especially with the ones closest to you... No idea why your husband bought a bottle of wine for you, I can just conclude that you did not advise him about your choice to live a better life....

notsleeping

He knowz and has known. He just thinks hes being nice and want his drinking buddy. He is part ofmy prob, but he is his own prob. I can only worrie about me. This isnt the first time ive tried to quit. Like i said before he literally thinks my problem is that i need to learn how to control it better. I dont know why he doesnt get that i am dying every time i drink, i have told him this. He is in a bigger denile than me i guess. This has been going on for years. I hope i can lead and he will follow, rather than the other way. I have 4 kids and am in no position to leave him, nor do i want to. Im not there yet. He has to come to his own terms on his own time. Today i have to take care of me.