First post: Griving one who is still alive
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First post: Griving one who is still alive
I am new here. I am the 23 year-old child of an addict. I am here because 3 days ago I received the call that my mother, who had been clean (aside for prescribed anti-anxiety meds) for a year, had overdosed on heroine. She is alive but I am completely reeling. I feel like I am going through the steps of grieving (out of order and over and over mind you). I am angry, sad, confused, afraid, numb and in pain all in rapid succession. I am so exhausted....
I am so sorry, my mother an alcoholic is still physically alive, however, she has been spirtually dead for years, she will die an alcoholic. I have already mourned her passing and that thought process has allowed me to move forward with my life.
She is in the hands of the HP, always has been, accept what you cannot change.
Keep posting, we are here for you.
She is in the hands of the HP, always has been, accept what you cannot change.
Keep posting, we are here for you.
I am so sorry, my mother an alcoholic is still physically alive, however, she has been spirtually dead for years, she will die an alcoholic. I have already mourned her passing and that thought process has allowed me to move forward with my life.
She is in the hands of the HP, always has been, accept what you cannot change.
Keep posting, we are here for you.
She is in the hands of the HP, always has been, accept what you cannot change.
Keep posting, we are here for you.
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So sorry to hear thegirl. Was it a suicide attempt? or was she just dumb and try to resume her normal dose from before she went clean for a year?
I guess the answer doesn't matter. Still hurts to see your parent destroy themselves when you know they know better. My dad has picked up his old habits again after nearly 20 years sober. It's hard enough just knowing he is using again, i can't imagine what you are going through.
I guess the answer doesn't matter. Still hurts to see your parent destroy themselves when you know they know better. My dad has picked up his old habits again after nearly 20 years sober. It's hard enough just knowing he is using again, i can't imagine what you are going through.
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It was not a suicide attempt, she was actually using "real" heroine for the first time (as far as I know). she was an oxy addict before. What is enraging me right now is having to listen her complain because the family has "disowned" her. this is not accurate. she has been asked not to attend a family wedding this weekend and there are members of my family that are angry and confused. we have all been doing this crap for years. i am sick of listening to her complaints when she is the one that has broken my and my little sister's heart yet again.
It was not a suicide attempt, she was actually using "real" heroine for the first time (as far as I know). she was an oxy addict before. What is enraging me right now is having to listen her complain because the family has "disowned" her. this is not accurate. she has been asked not to attend a family wedding this weekend and there are members of my family that are angry and confused. we have all been doing this crap for years. i am sick of listening to her complaints when she is the one that has broken my and my little sister's heart yet again.
It was not a suicide attempt, she was actually using "real" heroine for the first time (as far as I know). she was an oxy addict before. What is enraging me right now is having to listen her complain because the family has "disowned" her. this is not accurate. she has been asked not to attend a family wedding this weekend and there are members of my family that are angry and confused. we have all been doing this crap for years. i am sick of listening to her complaints when she is the one that has broken my and my little sister's heart yet again.
Just want to point out (lovingly) the words you are using like "having to listen to her" and "sick of listening to her"....please know that you don't HAVE to listen to her. If you are listening to her it is because you are choosing to.
My best advice (and you will hear it over and over again from folks on here) is to take back the power you have given to her and take care of yourself FIRST.
I know how toxic my relationship with my mom was at one time...and once I finally started making choices for me and putting myself first things started to get better in my life. It doesn't mean you don't love her. I will always love my mom and I have been able (with time and therapy) to let go of the anger I had towards her and realize that it was the addict that did/said all of those hurtful things and NOT my mom.
Anyway...I am rambling now....but just wanted to say...hang in there...I know it's not easy.
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