Still here
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Still here
Hey all.
I havent posted in a few days. I have been reading posts daily though. All is well and I am persevering. I have my family on board with my alcoholism and the support is great. I have had a moment where i thought that drinking would be nice. Once I play the tape in my head of all the ridiculous things that i have done I manage to pull myself out of the urge. Also, remembering to eat and fueling myself stops the craving.
This is my 1000th time trying to get sober and remain that way. Its the remaining that has always kicked my butt. So, I am thinking in terms of today and not in terms of the future. Does that make sense?
Thank you all for being here and for keeping it real.
I havent posted in a few days. I have been reading posts daily though. All is well and I am persevering. I have my family on board with my alcoholism and the support is great. I have had a moment where i thought that drinking would be nice. Once I play the tape in my head of all the ridiculous things that i have done I manage to pull myself out of the urge. Also, remembering to eat and fueling myself stops the craving.
This is my 1000th time trying to get sober and remain that way. Its the remaining that has always kicked my butt. So, I am thinking in terms of today and not in terms of the future. Does that make sense?
Thank you all for being here and for keeping it real.
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Maine
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Hell yeah that makes sense!
And I found it was on my 1000th try it stuck. Would have sucked to stop at 999 and never had known.
Happy for you! Keep going strong. We are all here beside you.
And I found it was on my 1000th try it stuck. Would have sucked to stop at 999 and never had known.
Happy for you! Keep going strong. We are all here beside you.
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Join Date: Jul 2012
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That's great Mizzuno!
Are you involved in any program of recovery?
In my experience, playing the tape through would only work for so long and then I would get to a mental blank spot where the tape didnt quite play all the way through, or if it did Id convince myself "its not that bad."
Are you involved in any program of recovery?
In my experience, playing the tape through would only work for so long and then I would get to a mental blank spot where the tape didnt quite play all the way through, or if it did Id convince myself "its not that bad."
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@bbthumper.
On my drive home tonight from work, I was reminding myself that after awhile the tape aka behaviors seem like a distant memory. I do remember thinking " it wasn't that bad". It really was that bad, has always been that bad and will always be a beast that wins the battle every round. Tonight I am staying out of the drunk ring and hangin out on SR. Seems like a great plan to me.
On my drive home tonight from work, I was reminding myself that after awhile the tape aka behaviors seem like a distant memory. I do remember thinking " it wasn't that bad". It really was that bad, has always been that bad and will always be a beast that wins the battle every round. Tonight I am staying out of the drunk ring and hangin out on SR. Seems like a great plan to me.
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