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looking for help
I feel like i'm forcing myself to do this, but i need to start somewhere.
I have been dealing with depression and anxiety since i was a child. My first thoughts of suicide was at the age of 12. I quit my job 2 weeks ago because the anxiety and alcolhol abuse were out of control. This morning, feeling as if losing my mind and with no one to talk to i called a panic attack hotline. The person i spoke to helped me realize just how long this **** has been going on for. I am in my early forties without a job and dont know how to deal with all of this. I didnt drink last night for the first time in weeks and was hoping to have a better day than this but i feel horrible and anxious. I am not suicidal but i am desperate for help.
Sorry to put my whole life into the newcomers forum, i'm not sure what to say. Please help.
I have been dealing with depression and anxiety since i was a child. My first thoughts of suicide was at the age of 12. I quit my job 2 weeks ago because the anxiety and alcolhol abuse were out of control. This morning, feeling as if losing my mind and with no one to talk to i called a panic attack hotline. The person i spoke to helped me realize just how long this **** has been going on for. I am in my early forties without a job and dont know how to deal with all of this. I didnt drink last night for the first time in weeks and was hoping to have a better day than this but i feel horrible and anxious. I am not suicidal but i am desperate for help.
Sorry to put my whole life into the newcomers forum, i'm not sure what to say. Please help.
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You sound just like me before I went to Alcoholics Anonymous.
When you go to the meetings you will meet lots of folks who have found the solution to just what you are describing.
All the best.
Bob R
When you go to the meetings you will meet lots of folks who have found the solution to just what you are describing.
All the best.
Bob R
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Mits78,
Well, first of all, welcome to SR! Please take the time to read the posts (and post again) - this place has helped me save myself (I am now 10.5 months sober).
I am sorry. You are not alone. Many of us ended up in some very precarious situations. I am just glad that you recognize your problem and want to do something about it.Have you gone to the doctor? Have you thought of one of the many sobriety programs?
Please keep reading and posting. We all care and want to help you. Take care.
Well, first of all, welcome to SR! Please take the time to read the posts (and post again) - this place has helped me save myself (I am now 10.5 months sober).
I am sorry. You are not alone. Many of us ended up in some very precarious situations. I am just glad that you recognize your problem and want to do something about it.Have you gone to the doctor? Have you thought of one of the many sobriety programs?
Please keep reading and posting. We all care and want to help you. Take care.
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Thanks everyone, your words are comforting.
I have since calmed since i wrote that post. I feel a little guilty after rereading what i've posted. Didnt mean to make it sound like i was a victim my whole life. I have my problems but I've also done my wrongs FWIW.
I have since calmed since i wrote that post. I feel a little guilty after rereading what i've posted. Didnt mean to make it sound like i was a victim my whole life. I have my problems but I've also done my wrongs FWIW.
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Originally Posted by Sapling 
Are you OK with detoxing on your own? It can be dangerous.
Thanks
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That's cool...I suffered through some major anxiety early on...It took me working those steps to free myself of that...Mine was alcohol driven...Early on I prayed and got to as many meetings as I could...Anxious or not...I was willing to go to ANY lengths.
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This is the start of your new life! Put on a smile, go for a walk, get some fresh air... take out a pen and piece of paper and start writing out your plan for life! I get comfort knowing that there is a plan, there is a goal, and that it's achievable if I start right now!! There is plenty of support in this forum, keep posting and you'll get the answers you need.
But most importantly, however you feel right now is nothing to what you'll feel like tomorrow if you pick up the bottle!
But most importantly, however you feel right now is nothing to what you'll feel like tomorrow if you pick up the bottle!
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Welcome to the family Mits. We're glad you told your story - you need to be open, among people you can trust. We all understand what you're going through.
It's not surprising you feel anxious when you've been drinking & then suddenly stopped. It took me a few days to begin to feel human again, after all I'd put myself through by self-medicating. I hope you'll feel better as the fog lifts. Please keep reading & posting. We care about you.
It's not surprising you feel anxious when you've been drinking & then suddenly stopped. It took me a few days to begin to feel human again, after all I'd put myself through by self-medicating. I hope you'll feel better as the fog lifts. Please keep reading & posting. We care about you.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
have you seen a Dr about your anxiety or your alcohol abuse?
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I'm overwhelmed with the support here. Thanks so much to everyone who responded.
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I remember having anxiety as a young child too, followed by depression. Through the years my anxiety robbed me of so much, including job opportunities, boyfriends, social activities. I was well into adulthood before I even attached a name to it. By my midforties, I was exhausted with trying to manage my anxiety and 'act' like I was okay. Alcohol allowed me to sleep and to calm, but of course it quickly took its toll.
Stopping drinking will help your anxiety diminish for sure and know that you will be able to learn ways to deal with your emotions. Congratulations on your decision to live a sober life.
Stopping drinking will help your anxiety diminish for sure and know that you will be able to learn ways to deal with your emotions. Congratulations on your decision to live a sober life.
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Welcome Mits 
Anxiety & depression, ugh 
I struggle with those also, & am in one of my very lows today. Waiting it out, getting through. Better days ahead. It is good to reach out for help. It's ok to seek professional help too. Sometimes chemicals in our brains and bodies can be helped...Very best wishes to you in sobriety and peace of mind.
Anxiety & depression, ugh 
I struggle with those also, & am in one of my very lows today. Waiting it out, getting through. Better days ahead. It is good to reach out for help. It's ok to seek professional help too. Sometimes chemicals in our brains and bodies can be helped...Very best wishes to you in sobriety and peace of mind.
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Welcome Mits!
During the last months of my drinking I felt like any little thing was going to send me into a nervous breakdown. Within a week of getting sober I felt calmer and more hopeful that I'd felt in years even though I had some major problems to work out.
Keep reading and posting and focus on getting through the next day (or hour) sober. Things really will get better.:ghug3
During the last months of my drinking I felt like any little thing was going to send me into a nervous breakdown. Within a week of getting sober I felt calmer and more hopeful that I'd felt in years even though I had some major problems to work out.
Keep reading and posting and focus on getting through the next day (or hour) sober. Things really will get better.:ghug3
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