ulfr

Am really struggling at the moment today is fathers day its the first since my dad died.
I feel upset and wishing that i had some whiskey so i can just get drunk and not think about my dad
Today i lit a candle for him its still burning going keep it burning until midnight tonight
All i can think about is the way he died ( he killed himself ) and the fact i want to get drunk
the last time i had a drink was in feb
i feel i really need it right now
I also feel suicidal but am dealing with that side of things

hypochondriac

Sorry to hear about your loss Dark Asylum x

I lost my dad too years ago and fathers day is always hard. Have you ever had grief counselling before? x

Dee74

I'm really sorry for your loss DA.

I don't think drinking helps grief though - it actually stops us from dealing with grief I think and keeps us in a kind of holding pattern.

If you think you need help, maybe grief counselling like hypo suggested is a good idea?

D

MalkavianEmily

Sorry about your loss Dark Asylum. This time of year isn't easy.
My Dad died six years ago. There's so many things I wish I'd been able to say to him. I can't help feeling that he's watching over me, and that he's happy I'm finally getting help after (cough) years.

regeneration

DA, really sorry to hear about your dad's death, and in that way.

Try to keep up the not drinking, your dad would want you to look out for yourself. I drunk a lot after my mum's death and as Dee said it delays it all. I lost my dad many years ago and was struggling a bit today.

Thinking of you, I hope you can get some counselling with someone (if you think useful).

Burning the candle is a lovely way to honour him.