I wasn't a believer, but I am seeing G-d's work
sobriety date 5-2-12
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I wasn't a believer, but I am seeing G-d's work
I finally started trying to pray a few days ago. I am in AA, but hadn't quite grasped the spiritual part. I have been sober 46 days and lately have been miserable. I am upset with my husband for no real reason, depressed, and feeling like none of this is worth it and may as well go back to using.
Next week my kids are gone for 8 days. I was going to go to the lake with a friend for a few days. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go with her bc I had decided I wanted to go all week by myself with my dog. My friend had to cancel on me and I thought- this is it- I can isolate and be by myself for a week- I would have left hubby here alone. Turns out my mom won't give me the keys- doesn't want me going alone. The more I thought about it the more I decided this was G-d's plan. He is guiding me as to what I shoukd be doing, and what I should be doing is staying in town and spending the 8 days alone with hubby rebuilding our relationship.
I have also been asking G-d to remove my resentment and anger towards my husband. Last night we actually had a conversation, and today I even talked to him on the phone (hubby, not G-d!!)
In the car today I turned off the radio and spoke aloud to my higher power and came to tears. I think I will be ok. I finally think I can do this. I can live my life bc I am not doing it all alone. When I am scared, or mad, or sad, my higher power will help me if I open myself up.
Next week my kids are gone for 8 days. I was going to go to the lake with a friend for a few days. I wasn't sure if I wanted to go with her bc I had decided I wanted to go all week by myself with my dog. My friend had to cancel on me and I thought- this is it- I can isolate and be by myself for a week- I would have left hubby here alone. Turns out my mom won't give me the keys- doesn't want me going alone. The more I thought about it the more I decided this was G-d's plan. He is guiding me as to what I shoukd be doing, and what I should be doing is staying in town and spending the 8 days alone with hubby rebuilding our relationship.
I have also been asking G-d to remove my resentment and anger towards my husband. Last night we actually had a conversation, and today I even talked to him on the phone (hubby, not G-d!!)
In the car today I turned off the radio and spoke aloud to my higher power and came to tears. I think I will be ok. I finally think I can do this. I can live my life bc I am not doing it all alone. When I am scared, or mad, or sad, my higher power will help me if I open myself up.
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That's lovely to here aeo.
I,ve been talking to big G all my life and he certainly has a plan for us ( I think )
On not getting the keys I would have but that 1 down to angels, as I really think they are the ones that do the guiding for the big HP.
I wish you well on your journey
p.s thank the angels, they love to hear it and I can bet you will see a lot more signs from them
big love
Sean
I,ve been talking to big G all my life and he certainly has a plan for us ( I think )
On not getting the keys I would have but that 1 down to angels, as I really think they are the ones that do the guiding for the big HP.
I wish you well on your journey
p.s thank the angels, they love to hear it and I can bet you will see a lot more signs from them
big love
Sean
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Aeo, your post is really great.
For me, I would call it listening to my soul. For so many years I blocked out the quiet, peaceful voice of my soul. But, when I stopped drinking, I knew it was there and if I was patient and quiet, I would hear it again...and I did.
For me, I would call it listening to my soul. For so many years I blocked out the quiet, peaceful voice of my soul. But, when I stopped drinking, I knew it was there and if I was patient and quiet, I would hear it again...and I did.
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