day 4 no alcohol, day 1 no boyfriend
day 4 no alcohol, day 1 no boyfriend
Today it officially ended. Thank you to everyone who was encouraging lately, I have been a train wreck for a while now. Today, after my boyfriend told me he wasn't leaving me, but his life when he is not with me is private and I'm not allowed to ask questions... I realized I had finally had enough. So I ended it.
I'm doing ok right now, I made an emergency appointment with my therapist for tomorrow. I know that I'm going to get emotional when I have time to think about it and miss him. As awful as the past four years have been, there have been some great times too. I feel like I'm losing the one person who knows me better than anyone else. We'll see how this goes.
I'm doing ok right now, I made an emergency appointment with my therapist for tomorrow. I know that I'm going to get emotional when I have time to think about it and miss him. As awful as the past four years have been, there have been some great times too. I feel like I'm losing the one person who knows me better than anyone else. We'll see how this goes.
Hi SnowDaisy. Very proud of you for your 4 days sober! Sorry you've had to deal with a breakup during this stressful time, but it sounds like it was the healthiest thing for you. Each day you'll feel a little stronger - better days are coming.
SnowDaisy - congrats on your four days...I'm sorry about your 1st day of breakup...that can really be hard...but if it is the healthiest thing for you then that is a good thing.
I wish you all the best. And keep going. )
I wish you all the best. And keep going. )
Daisy~ It sounds like you are making some really good choices for yourself & being smart in identifying how you're feeling & making your therapy appointment. Good work And many congratulations on your 4 days!
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I know ending a relatioship sucks...But I don't see any future in this one anyway....I think you have a whole new life ahead of you to be happy...With someone that cares about you....Get sober and live for that.
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You're 1000 times better off now and soon you will be happier than you have EVER been without a toxic relationship or anxiety/depression that comes with drinking. Like I, you'll find 2 voids missing when this happens at the same time (BU + quitting drinking) and just find things to do, walking, writing, music, sports..anything you want!
The first 2 weeks is tough but it gets better and better after that. Let us know how you are doing and post here instead of contacting him if it gets bad.
Take care
The first 2 weeks is tough but it gets better and better after that. Let us know how you are doing and post here instead of contacting him if it gets bad.
Take care
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