This Was Much Easier in the Beginning
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This Was Much Easier in the Beginning
So I went off oxy's without a hitch (I thought).
Then got cocky and decided, "Hmmmm. Well, that was easy. Let's get off the benzo's next!"
Big mistake.
Opiate withdrawal was difficult.
Benso withdrawal is seemingly impossible.
If I knew now what I didn't know 14 years ago when my doctor put me on them for anxiety (.5 mgs of Ativan three times per day, and 1mg of Klonopin at bedtime), I would NEVER have started this madness.
WOW.
My mind has gone to the darkest places it's ever been before.
Contemplating the cost of living outweighing the benefits is certainly something I didn't see coming, now was I prepare for this.
Man, this sucks.
And from what internet research I've done, it's bound to suck for anywhere from several months to several years.
And I really didn't sign on for this...
Then got cocky and decided, "Hmmmm. Well, that was easy. Let's get off the benzo's next!"
Big mistake.
Opiate withdrawal was difficult.
Benso withdrawal is seemingly impossible.
If I knew now what I didn't know 14 years ago when my doctor put me on them for anxiety (.5 mgs of Ativan three times per day, and 1mg of Klonopin at bedtime), I would NEVER have started this madness.
WOW.
My mind has gone to the darkest places it's ever been before.
Contemplating the cost of living outweighing the benefits is certainly something I didn't see coming, now was I prepare for this.
Man, this sucks.
And from what internet research I've done, it's bound to suck for anywhere from several months to several years.
And I really didn't sign on for this...
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I'm sure it's been done before, so that gives me some hope.
It just really, really sucks.
Bigger picture is why doctors are so free with prescribing anti-anxiety benzos to young mothers who don't know squat about these drugs. Not saying that ignorance is a defense though...just saying that those of us who (when we were younger) put so much faith in our docs and did whatever they said, are now paying heavily for that....
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jilllian: 30 yrs of booze and 15 yrs of Valium here. (plus assorted party mix)
I highly recommend NA, those folks have been through it and can help you a lot.
All the best.
Bob R
I highly recommend NA, those folks have been through it and can help you a lot.
All the best.
Bob R
Hi Jillian
I know next to nothing about benzoes but we have several members here who'll chime in soon with knowledge and wisdom
Are you seeing a Dr about this (a different one from the prescribing Dr I mean)?
D
I know next to nothing about benzoes but we have several members here who'll chime in soon with knowledge and wisdom
Are you seeing a Dr about this (a different one from the prescribing Dr I mean)?
D
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add that to the fact that being OFF all these drugs (plus my antidepressants and any other chemical prescribed, like steroids) has made me agoraphobic. i'm terrified to leave the house, yet realize how irrational this is. i've been literally working from home for weeks now.
first month of being clean from those awful oxy's i was singing in my car (putting down my microphone-hairbrush at red lights of course) and now i'm reduced to a pile of "help-me-please-and-what-the-eff-do-i-do-now?"
it's amazing how PARANOID one becomes when getting off all these meds! some are downright comical. but most are downright scary!
never, ever saw this coming, and realize how spoiled i was when everything became so wonderful after the detox off oxy's....
it's like i entered another dimension or something...
thanks, bob...
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sucks when you're not sure if you're paranoid or just "right"!
oh, and i've been meaning to mention this when i first arrived here...ummm.. you rock, by the way. thank you.
I have been doing a VERY gradual taper off of Xanax. I have been on Xanax for 6 years and am HIGHLY sensitive to it. Currently I only taper .125 mg a MONTH....I have come down from 3mg a day to 1.825. It takes a while but is manageable and you avoid all of the headcreeps that you are experiencing. You didn't get habituated overnight, and some remapping of your brain has occurred....plus downright stopping cold turkey can cause convulsions.
Nobody wants the long road, but I have accepted it with me and Xanax. At my current progress it will take me until July of 2013 to be fully off of it, but I have just lost my mind on it before and my doctor is going super super slowly with me. I do have some sleepless nights each time I taper, but that is just the price I pay so I try to have those over the weekend.
Give tapering a try...when I think I am now down over 1mg it is a good feeling indeed. Good luck with that!
Nobody wants the long road, but I have accepted it with me and Xanax. At my current progress it will take me until July of 2013 to be fully off of it, but I have just lost my mind on it before and my doctor is going super super slowly with me. I do have some sleepless nights each time I taper, but that is just the price I pay so I try to have those over the weekend.
Give tapering a try...when I think I am now down over 1mg it is a good feeling indeed. Good luck with that!
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