aeo1313

Took my last pills around noon yesterday. Last night I lay in bed crying- first night in a long time I have got to bed without having taken anything before. I thought of all of you laying in bed with the same thoughts as I, and that helped so much- to know I wasn't alone. Well, I'm off to my first drug/drink free day.

Fubarcdn

Good for you.
Hope the coming down is not too hard on you.
Keep at it. You can do this.

Saliena

Good Luck!!! Let this be your last first day!!!

Anna

You've made the best decision for yourself.

Tigger41

aeo - that's great! You can do this! and it will get better and your life will be so full and so clear. It's a bit tough in the beginning and there are moments that you might have to hang on by your finger tips but if you stick with it your life fills up with all kinds of good things.

Yep - In the beginning that happened to me - also would get hit out of no where with short, intense crying jags. Don't be suprised if that happens - but they pass and deminish over time.

Take care.

Threshold

Good for you!

Remember, the pain of withdrawal passes, the pain of active addiction doesn't. You only have to go through getting clean once, then...FREEDOM!

IndaMiricale

Good for you aeo,

I met you the another nite in chat I believe and your were talking about the pills.

Learning to sleep own our own accord is tough at first but it does come , and waking up is just a wonderful feeling. Give it time and keep doing what you are

Good love, Inda

desertsong

Proud of you, aeo. You can do this, you really can. And yes, I go to bed at night with the same thoughts. I've had horrible insomnia the last few nights and the thought has gone through my head, "If I just have a shot of whiskey, that'll put me right out." Yeah. Maybe TEN shots later I'd be PASSED out. lol

It gets easier. The mornings are much nicer waking up with a clear head.

Dee74

way to go aeo1313

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quitforme79

You are definitely not alone aeo1313...we are all here rooting for you. I hope you are feeling better tonight, I'm so glad you have decided to stop doing that to yourself

aeo1313

Thanks guys for the support. I went to my first AA meeting tonight. It was ok. I think I will go again Saturday. Husband and I talked tonight. I lied every night this week about being out of pills and now I really am. I don't blame him for not trusting me. At the meeting I realized it can apply to most addictions. I wonder to hubby tonight if now that the pills are gone and I stop drinking will my old friend bulimia decide it's time to play.

lilgolden73

Awesome! Hope its a better night tonight!

Tigger41

I actually didn't, which I was relieved about. I still used to do some of that while drinking - I think because I wasn't in control. But it seems the more in control of my life I get the less all of those things are playing a part.

One thing at a time though aeo - one thing at a time. How are the cravings? Is there anything we can do for you?

jocata

Way to go aeo!!

God bless.