Been here for a month in hiding...
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Been here for a month in hiding...
Good news first: I'm sober 5 days and counting!
Bad news: This is much harder than unscrewing the liquor bottle cap.
I've been reading all of your threads and posts for days and days working up the courage to do it all for myself.
I think the worst part of my drinking the past 3 years has been hiding it and turning into someone I'm really not. Somehow the liquor grabbed a hold of me and squeezed until I looked forward to that comfortable throat burn after a long day of work and hangover.
Its my choice to drink and I've made my choice not to anymore.
Bad news: This is much harder than unscrewing the liquor bottle cap.
I've been reading all of your threads and posts for days and days working up the courage to do it all for myself.
I think the worst part of my drinking the past 3 years has been hiding it and turning into someone I'm really not. Somehow the liquor grabbed a hold of me and squeezed until I looked forward to that comfortable throat burn after a long day of work and hangover.
Its my choice to drink and I've made my choice not to anymore.
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Originally Posted by Snowbawl 
Its my choice to drink and I've made my choice not to anymore.
I drank every day, I binge drank, drank only every other day, drank only beer the list goes on ad infinum. All to have a choice did I drink these ways. But, I could no sooner quit altogether than I could shake the nose off my face. All choice had been taken away.
I sincerely hope you aren't at this point. If you are, please seek professional attention.
I joined here four years ago, and I just now have 23 months sober. That's how long it took me to figure things out, go through sheer hell and get sober.
The good news is: there's help available. Coming here, groups like AA, counselors ect.
So, you don't have to go through this alone.
Welcome, and I hope you keep posting here as much as you want to. there's lots of experience, strength and hope here. It certainly rubbed off on me. I guess I quit through osmosis.
Best to you.
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Join Date: Nov 2011
Location: Woodford, VA
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Congrats on 5 days!!
I am at 22 days after 23 years on and off the bottle.
You said you decided not to drink anymore....
That is an impossible challenge, as I learned over and over.
With the help of AA and groups like these, I can make the choice not to drink for today, and let tomorrow take care of itself.
For me, it is much easier to not drink for one day than to dwell on drinking never again.
I am at 22 days after 23 years on and off the bottle.
You said you decided not to drink anymore....
That is an impossible challenge, as I learned over and over.
With the help of AA and groups like these, I can make the choice not to drink for today, and let tomorrow take care of itself.
For me, it is much easier to not drink for one day than to dwell on drinking never again.
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Join Date: Nov 2011
Location: Randolph NJ
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Welcome to SR and congratulations on your decision to get sober. I was a lurker on this site for about 2 years until I posted. Don't be afraid to post, everyone here is very supportive and it's a good way to get things off your chest. Good luck to you!
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5 days is great. Congrats, your body thanks you! 
I couldn't do it alone either so I'm here like you! I also read many books and go to AA. I'm not perfect messed up a couple of times. I think it was due to the "never again" part of drinking and yes it is easier to drink than not to drink. But to drink is to choose death if you are a true Alcoholic. That's how I have to view this beast now.
All my best to you and hope t0 keep seeing you around and hearing about your journey! WELCOME!
I couldn't do it alone either so I'm here like you! I also read many books and go to AA. I'm not perfect messed up a couple of times. I think it was due to the "never again" part of drinking and yes it is easier to drink than not to drink. But to drink is to choose death if you are a true Alcoholic. That's how I have to view this beast now.
All my best to you and hope t0 keep seeing you around and hearing about your journey! WELCOME!
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Originally Posted by Snowbawl
Good news first: I'm sober 5 days and counting!
Bad news: This is much harder than unscrewing the liquor bottle cap.
Bad news: This is much harder than unscrewing the liquor bottle cap.
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:ghug3Welcome so glad your here.......your story is my story.......and I know you've realized you were an uncontrollable drinker for quite some time now.....but keep aiming for sobriety.....one day I know in my heart that this will all be a memory.....we will never desire to drink again. God bless you with wisdom!
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Welcome and congrats on 5 days!
I'm with you. I've decided I don't want to drink anymore either. Just not worth it - going to take it day by day when I need to but besides that just working on getting it out of my head as a possibility.
Great work so far.
I'm with you. I've decided I don't want to drink anymore either. Just not worth it - going to take it day by day when I need to but besides that just working on getting it out of my head as a possibility.
Great work so far.
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Thank you everyone for your support. It feels amazing to have such great and positive people making me feel better about this choice. Even though I don't know a single one of you it just helps me through the day knowing you are all here.
I have tried to quit many times before but for all the wrong reasons. Finally I decided to quit for me and my body and my mind not any one thing else. I think that is the turning point for me.
It's amazing, sometimes I read the posts on these boards and think I actually wrote them because I can relate so well. I'm really happy to have you folks
I have tried to quit many times before but for all the wrong reasons. Finally I decided to quit for me and my body and my mind not any one thing else. I think that is the turning point for me.
It's amazing, sometimes I read the posts on these boards and think I actually wrote them because I can relate so well. I'm really happy to have you folks
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