I've decided to go to a rehab
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I've decided to go to a rehab
I've decided to go to a rehab.I just hope I actually get it setup and don't back out.
It's going to very hard to say goodbye to that adderall prescription.Telling my Doctor that I don't want the prescription is going to be so hard.If I'm truthful with her;there's no turning back;i'll never get a prescription for adderall again.
I don't know if I can do it.
I'm sitting here crying because I don't think I can tell her I don't want it.It's destroying me and I don't think there's much of me left.But at this point I think it would easier for me to tell her to cut off my left arm than to not give me that script.
It's going to very hard to say goodbye to that adderall prescription.Telling my Doctor that I don't want the prescription is going to be so hard.If I'm truthful with her;there's no turning back;i'll never get a prescription for adderall again.
I don't know if I can do it.
I'm sitting here crying because I don't think I can tell her I don't want it.It's destroying me and I don't think there's much of me left.But at this point I think it would easier for me to tell her to cut off my left arm than to not give me that script.
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Zorilla...congratulations on your life-saving decision. We're all proud of you. Please keep us posted regarding when you are admitted, and whether you will continue to post during rehab. Give it your all...completely surrender to the program, and you will be triumphant. Peace, and God's blessings to you!
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Please do follow thru....there is so much to enjoy when you come out the other side....
Your doctor may have just the correct place for you to enter...please be honest and get her suggestions.
Your doctor may have just the correct place for you to enter...please be honest and get her suggestions.
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Hi Zorilla
My addiction to Ritalin (stimulant very much like Adderall) was what earned me a bed in rehab... it's a long story, LOL.
I see you joined in 2005 so I assume you've been taking them awhile. I did too. It was hard to quit the stimulants... God, I loved them at first... later on they caused me lots of problems, lots...
Anyway, when the "jig was up" on my Ritalin addiction, it was in many ways a relief. I could stop my runnin', get off them once and for all. Make the call. Feel free to PM me if you like, I do know how you feel.
My addiction to Ritalin (stimulant very much like Adderall) was what earned me a bed in rehab... it's a long story, LOL.
I see you joined in 2005 so I assume you've been taking them awhile. I did too. It was hard to quit the stimulants... God, I loved them at first... later on they caused me lots of problems, lots...
Anyway, when the "jig was up" on my Ritalin addiction, it was in many ways a relief. I could stop my runnin', get off them once and for all. Make the call. Feel free to PM me if you like, I do know how you feel.
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Wow thanks for all the posts.
It must be my time because all the big reasons why I'd back out & not go to rehab
are going away.Everything is falling into place with very little effort of mine.
For the last month everything bad that happened to me suddenly I saw as good things.
it made me continuing this crap alot harder.
People close to me noticed that even though my life was so out of control I would laugh and find something good in everything.This is not the usual me.I have OCD and find all the bad things.
I've never had any feeling of everything will ok since I was little girl.
It would be total feelings of worry;guilt;what ifs.
For the last 6 months it's become harder and harder to fill my adderall script.
It's a nationwide problem;drugstores don't have it and can't order it because the suppliers are out.I was pissed and feelings of panic came over me that I couldn't get it filled.
Thoughts of maybe this is a miracle would cross my mind.
I can't stop it's not ever going to happen but if there isn't any wow this nightmare would completely be over.
Where I live there is no one that sells adderall.
I only have to do one simple thing;tell my doctor to redflag me and my supply of adderall
will be gone.I'll want it and crave it but it will very hard to find any.
I just can't believe all the good things that seem to happening.
It must be my time because all the big reasons why I'd back out & not go to rehab
are going away.Everything is falling into place with very little effort of mine.
For the last month everything bad that happened to me suddenly I saw as good things.
it made me continuing this crap alot harder.
People close to me noticed that even though my life was so out of control I would laugh and find something good in everything.This is not the usual me.I have OCD and find all the bad things.
I've never had any feeling of everything will ok since I was little girl.
It would be total feelings of worry;guilt;what ifs.
For the last 6 months it's become harder and harder to fill my adderall script.
It's a nationwide problem;drugstores don't have it and can't order it because the suppliers are out.I was pissed and feelings of panic came over me that I couldn't get it filled.
Thoughts of maybe this is a miracle would cross my mind.
I can't stop it's not ever going to happen but if there isn't any wow this nightmare would completely be over.
Where I live there is no one that sells adderall.
I only have to do one simple thing;tell my doctor to redflag me and my supply of adderall
will be gone.I'll want it and crave it but it will very hard to find any.
I just can't believe all the good things that seem to happening.
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Zorilla...I am very happy for you. My rehab stint 28 yrs ago for coke, pot and booze was a life changer for me as well. Since then, I, too have struggled with Ritalin, until a month ago. Like Mark75 said, we are here for you, and understand the struggle. Don't forget that! If you don't have access to SR in rehab, and I hope you do, please remember the strength and support you have here when you get out, as Carol pointed out. I really am proud of you for this ever important move in your life!
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everyone's strength and support here helped me do this.i don't know if i'll have access to SR in the rehab or not.if i do i'll be posting.
something must be wrong with me;i didn't ask what i could & couldn't have.
i'm trying to figure out how i can stay longer.
something must be wrong with me;i didn't ask what i could & couldn't have.
i'm trying to figure out how i can stay longer.
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Originally Posted by LoftyIdeals 
Zorilla...I am very happy for you. My rehab stint 28 yrs ago for coke, pot and booze was a life changer for me as well. Since then, I, too have struggled with Ritalin, until a month ago. Like Mark75 said, we are here for you, and understand the struggle. Don't forget that! If you don't have access to SR in rehab, and I hope you do, please remember the strength and support you have here when you get out, as Carol pointed out. I really am proud of you for this ever important move in your life!
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