lillamy

I came to accept that my H was an A.
That I don't want to live with him.

I thought that was sort of it.
That I was done with him and could work on my own recovery.

But I'm realizing now that there are always new levels to accept, isn't there?

I know he'll never be the HUSBAND I thought he would, because of his drinking. So why on God's green earth do I expect him to be the EX-HUSBAND I would like to have? He's still drinking. The only thing that changed is that I moved out and divorced him.

Silly me.

m1k3

These little epiphanies have a way of sneaking up and biting us on our A don't they?

((((hugs))))

jamaicamecrazy

You are having a really bad day. I'm sorry. But through this all I still feel your strength in that you KNOW that your daughter is hurting and are doing everything in your power to keep it together when you rather lash out because of your pain. You also know that your AXH is someone who you cannot count on and every time you forget you are quickly reminded. Iy sucks and it is difficult but you are so much healthier and aware of yourself and others than when you were in the middle of the chaos. You do have more clarity and its not always a pretty picture is it?
Take a deep breath and be gentle with yourself.

fourmaggie

the 3A's

awareness,
acceptance and
action...(whatever you plan to do with it)