6 Months Today!!!!
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Join Date: Aug 2010
Location: Indianapolis, IN
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6 Months Today!!!!
Hey everyone. I just wanted to share a milestone with you guys. Today marks 6 months of continuous sobriety for me! Pretty unbelievalbe really....
When I quit in early December 2010 it was like all of the other times I quit. I was fed up, sick of living they way I had been, but deep down - I think I thought I'd fail like all of other times.
I can't tell you how many times I awoke after a night of heavy drinking, hungover as can be, and said "God, if you get me through this, I'll never drink again!". The thing is, I really meant it. At that very moment, I really did plan to never drink again. If I were not an alcoholic I probably could have made good on that promise. For me, there always came that moment where I NEEDED to drink. It wasn't that I wanted to, or thought it sounded good, or had a hard day at work, it was that I HAD to have it.
Getting into recovery has allowed me to no longer NEED that drink.
The biggest difference this time has been the saying "One day at a time". I know we all hear / say it all of the time, but that is what staying sober is for me. Just one day at a time. If I don't get drunk today, I'll never drink again.
I have had so much fun and have felt the pure joy of living again that I frankly had forgotten existed when I was drinking. I tend to see the good in poeple and situations now - where before I'd say "HERE WE GO AGAIN - I'M SCREWED"... I have learned to live without being dominated by fear. I still have my moments, but overall I'm in a much better place now than I was six months ago.
So, SR, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am so grateful to be sober today and you guys and gals have been a very important peiece of the puzzle.
I wish you all the best!!!!
When I quit in early December 2010 it was like all of the other times I quit. I was fed up, sick of living they way I had been, but deep down - I think I thought I'd fail like all of other times.
I can't tell you how many times I awoke after a night of heavy drinking, hungover as can be, and said "God, if you get me through this, I'll never drink again!". The thing is, I really meant it. At that very moment, I really did plan to never drink again. If I were not an alcoholic I probably could have made good on that promise. For me, there always came that moment where I NEEDED to drink. It wasn't that I wanted to, or thought it sounded good, or had a hard day at work, it was that I HAD to have it.
Getting into recovery has allowed me to no longer NEED that drink.
The biggest difference this time has been the saying "One day at a time". I know we all hear / say it all of the time, but that is what staying sober is for me. Just one day at a time. If I don't get drunk today, I'll never drink again.
I have had so much fun and have felt the pure joy of living again that I frankly had forgotten existed when I was drinking. I tend to see the good in poeple and situations now - where before I'd say "HERE WE GO AGAIN - I'M SCREWED"... I have learned to live without being dominated by fear. I still have my moments, but overall I'm in a much better place now than I was six months ago.
So, SR, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am so grateful to be sober today and you guys and gals have been a very important peiece of the puzzle.
I wish you all the best!!!!
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: Dallas, TX
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Glad to see you made it to 6 months!
I've been right behind you in recovery, and while I don't post much I'm on and reading all the time.
I must admit that ever since I rounded up to 6 months but am still not there my brain has been messing with me. In just this last week I went on my first date in like 7 months, struggled through the holiday weekend, about to miss a quarterly deadline at work, and am now under the weather.
I'm sure as the sky is blue I couldn't have made it through a week like that sober without help here, AA, and the steps. Even though my stress and anxiety are through the roof, I've built up a good defense against the first drink. I would be letting a lot of people down and lose a lot more if I decided to drink today.
I've also learned that I get what I ask for. I've been worried about my work deadline since the beginning of the year and despite putting in the effort, I am going to end up missing it. I am now prepared for my stress level at work to go from a 9/10 to a 10/10, if I even can keep my job. I've learned so much and just need to have faith that everything is going to work out like it is supposed to!
I've been right behind you in recovery, and while I don't post much I'm on and reading all the time.
I must admit that ever since I rounded up to 6 months but am still not there my brain has been messing with me. In just this last week I went on my first date in like 7 months, struggled through the holiday weekend, about to miss a quarterly deadline at work, and am now under the weather.
I'm sure as the sky is blue I couldn't have made it through a week like that sober without help here, AA, and the steps. Even though my stress and anxiety are through the roof, I've built up a good defense against the first drink. I would be letting a lot of people down and lose a lot more if I decided to drink today.
I've also learned that I get what I ask for. I've been worried about my work deadline since the beginning of the year and despite putting in the effort, I am going to end up missing it. I am now prepared for my stress level at work to go from a 9/10 to a 10/10, if I even can keep my job. I've learned so much and just need to have faith that everything is going to work out like it is supposed to!
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