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Well, I havent been here in a minute. I know some of you may be curious about how I am doin down here in Florida. I cant even put into words how freakin amazing it has been. I really should have done this a long time ago. The ones on my FB have seen my progress. So I want to let you all know too.
I got here and went strait to lookin for a job. About a week and a half after i got here. My room mate and I had a disagreemnet and I left and came to a motel for a week. I had a job but couoldnt start it because I moved way across the county. No vehicle. So I payed for a week here and hoped for the best. Went lookin gfor a joba nd got it. At a restauratn I have worked in before. I now have a 1 bed apt and money in my pocket and and everything is just gettin better and better. Aside from all the obvious things like the apt. Which is the first time I have ever had my onw place AND I am paying for everyhting on my own. I have never done this before. I am surprising the hell out of myself.
Anyway, Nothing compares to the feeling of doin it. OMG,. Its amazing. I mean amazing/. I got a man that is so supportive and understnding. I have known him for lime 11 ir 12 yrs. We use to kick it back in the day. And we just decided since i got my **** together finally. We should try and make it happen like we both ahve wanted all this time. I was a mess, thats why it never came to be anything until now. He is ambitious and just makes me feel like I can do anything.
He knows all about ym past and still loves me and wants to be with me. You all know how hard it was for me to get close to anyone for fear of my past being an issue.
He has seen me at my worst. But he knows that wasnt me.
Life is freakin wonderful. I can say 100% that this is it. This is what I have been waitin for. It is my time fianlly. I have never been so ready as I am now and will always be from here on out. '
In 4 weeks I have done all that. Its a feelin I cant even explain.
thank you all for believin in me. without all of you I may not have made it at times.
I got here and went strait to lookin for a job. About a week and a half after i got here. My room mate and I had a disagreemnet and I left and came to a motel for a week. I had a job but couoldnt start it because I moved way across the county. No vehicle. So I payed for a week here and hoped for the best. Went lookin gfor a joba nd got it. At a restauratn I have worked in before. I now have a 1 bed apt and money in my pocket and and everything is just gettin better and better. Aside from all the obvious things like the apt. Which is the first time I have ever had my onw place AND I am paying for everyhting on my own. I have never done this before. I am surprising the hell out of myself.
Anyway, Nothing compares to the feeling of doin it. OMG,. Its amazing. I mean amazing/. I got a man that is so supportive and understnding. I have known him for lime 11 ir 12 yrs. We use to kick it back in the day. And we just decided since i got my **** together finally. We should try and make it happen like we both ahve wanted all this time. I was a mess, thats why it never came to be anything until now. He is ambitious and just makes me feel like I can do anything.
He knows all about ym past and still loves me and wants to be with me. You all know how hard it was for me to get close to anyone for fear of my past being an issue.
He has seen me at my worst. But he knows that wasnt me.
Life is freakin wonderful. I can say 100% that this is it. This is what I have been waitin for. It is my time fianlly. I have never been so ready as I am now and will always be from here on out. '
In 4 weeks I have done all that. Its a feelin I cant even explain.
thank you all for believin in me. without all of you I may not have made it at times.
Glad to hear things are going well! Are you hooked up with a recovery community there? That's important, I think.
It's easy as an addict I think to keep hopping from one exciting thing to the next. Want to make sure you can just hang when things are 'so so'. Get your brain in a place where ease is comforting, yk?
Keep us posted on everything. You have a lot of support here!
It's easy as an addict I think to keep hopping from one exciting thing to the next. Want to make sure you can just hang when things are 'so so'. Get your brain in a place where ease is comforting, yk?
Keep us posted on everything. You have a lot of support here!
Way to go Aysha!!! I know you feel like you are on top of the world right now. Just keep it somewhere in the back of your mind! Thank God for getting me to this point in my life and always, always, always remember you don't want to go back to the life before this one. So when you hit that bump in the road. Quickly say the serenity prayer a few times. Because as RA's, we tend to use the f'it thought and go back out to deal with that bump in the road. Then we've REALLY screwed up, AGAIN.
Good luck to ya and hope you and your man have a wonderful, clean life together.
TOD
Good luck to ya and hope you and your man have a wonderful, clean life together.
TOD
Awesome news Trish! I wish you the very best.
I hope that you keep praying, keep hoping for something better, and never ever forget where you came from, and what you've been through.
Remembering helps keep us sober
I hope that you keep praying, keep hoping for something better, and never ever forget where you came from, and what you've been through.
Remembering helps keep us sober
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