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Yesterday was day #30. This is the longest I've gone witout drinking in probably 15 + years. It will be interesting to see how I feel after the next 30! So far it's going great. Amazingly, I haven't really even had any temptation. I've tried this before and didn't do so well. But something clicked this time. I don't even *want* a drink. I had some mild withdrawl symptoms the first week or two, other than that it's been no problem. I don't have any real explanation for that. Just the right time I guess.
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You like i have made a good start eddie - however i did find that although my cravings for alcohol faded the addict within is still triggered when things go wrong -
i dont know what you have been through but i was told on this site that each persons recovery is their own - in addition i think one of the mods mentioned that as recovering alcohols many of us lack certain life skills that must be learnt
so while im glad its going well if you dont ever feel the urge to slip up you your wired up different to me atleast - point is it can be resisted in a manner of ways that folk can tell u
Keep happy but be warned when things go wrong you may also be tempted - if you read my postings history you will know just how hard im finding it - however with help i have not yet slipped up in 75 days - be strong and listen and you will deffo learn - for real many people here want genuinely to help
oh and if i was drinking well i might be dead or arrested so im glad im not-started with enjoying it and thats where i ended up
well done
i dont know what you have been through but i was told on this site that each persons recovery is their own - in addition i think one of the mods mentioned that as recovering alcohols many of us lack certain life skills that must be learnt
so while im glad its going well if you dont ever feel the urge to slip up you your wired up different to me atleast - point is it can be resisted in a manner of ways that folk can tell u
Keep happy but be warned when things go wrong you may also be tempted - if you read my postings history you will know just how hard im finding it - however with help i have not yet slipped up in 75 days - be strong and listen and you will deffo learn - for real many people here want genuinely to help
oh and if i was drinking well i might be dead or arrested so im glad im not-started with enjoying it and thats where i ended up
well done
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Originally Posted by Eddie2 
I've tried this before and didn't do so well. But something clicked this time.
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Originally Posted by kevinlednylon
Keep happy but be warned when things go wrong you may also be tempted - if you read my postings history you will know just how hard im finding it - however with help i have not yet slipped up in 75 days - be strong and listen and you will deffo learn - for real many people here want genuinely to help
Hang in there and sorry you're having a hard time. But it sounds like you have your head in the right place. Have to remember why we quit. I keep telling myself that. I'm a little worried that I'll say "hey, this isn't a problem after all!" and find myslef stumbling through the house at 3 AM again. I *really* don't want that. No, more than that. I *really* won't allow myself to go there again.
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Well done Eddie, so pleased that this time it is really clicking for you. Guard your sobriety, make it your number one objective.... and then I am sure everything else will fall in to place.
definately no more 3am stumbles!
definately no more 3am stumbles!
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ALL my personal relationships that i have have got better and i am more highly respected in them, can hold my own in converstation etc so lots of good and for me thats built mostly on having active recovery - that would be damaged by a relapse so dont go there
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Originally Posted by Eddie2
It will be interesting to see how I feel after the next 30! So far it's going great..
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Haven't been stopping buy in a while. But still doing well. Day 50 came and went without incident. So far so good.
I'm a little disappointed that my life hasn't miraculously transformed into some kind of perfection. Actually, it's all pretty much the same, except that I'm not hungover all the time. I kinda expected too much. But I'm not tempted to start drinking again. I think I need to take a look at everything in my life and make some clear headed decisions, something I wasn't really in a place to do before.
I'm a little disappointed that my life hasn't miraculously transformed into some kind of perfection. Actually, it's all pretty much the same, except that I'm not hungover all the time. I kinda expected too much. But I'm not tempted to start drinking again. I think I need to take a look at everything in my life and make some clear headed decisions, something I wasn't really in a place to do before.
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Great to hear Eddie. And I can relate...things dont miraculously get awesome. But isnt it great to wake up sober and face all that life has in store for us! Good and not so good.
Keep it going mate.
Keep it going mate.
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Man, that was nuts. Strangest day I've had in a while. One of those days when a glass of wine (or six - if it was one glass I wouldn't have a problem) sounds really good. But I'm doing fine.
An interesting thing happened today. I was talking to a friend at work - it really was a strange day and I was updating him on the weirdness - and I happened to mention "one of those days when I wish I hadn't stopped drinking!" as kind of a joke. He laughed and said "Did you stop drinking?" I told him yeah, and said, honestly, I just felt like I had been drinking too much. He said "yeah, I did too. Couple of months ago. I feel a lot better". We talked about it just for a minute, just in a casual way. But it was good. It's the first time I've talked to anyone about it. And it didn't feel funny. It was fine. It wasn't like a big, heavy thing. Just something I'm doing because that's what I want to do.
An interesting thing happened today. I was talking to a friend at work - it really was a strange day and I was updating him on the weirdness - and I happened to mention "one of those days when I wish I hadn't stopped drinking!" as kind of a joke. He laughed and said "Did you stop drinking?" I told him yeah, and said, honestly, I just felt like I had been drinking too much. He said "yeah, I did too. Couple of months ago. I feel a lot better". We talked about it just for a minute, just in a casual way. But it was good. It's the first time I've talked to anyone about it. And it didn't feel funny. It was fine. It wasn't like a big, heavy thing. Just something I'm doing because that's what I want to do.
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Originally Posted by Eddie2
Haven't been stopping buy in a while. But still doing well. Day 50 came and went without incident. So far so good.
I'm a little disappointed that my life hasn't miraculously transformed into some kind of perfection. Actually, it's all pretty much the same, except that I'm not hungover all the time. I kinda expected too much. But I'm not tempted to start drinking again. I think I need to take a look at everything in my life and make some clear headed decisions, something I wasn't really in a place to do before.
I'm a little disappointed that my life hasn't miraculously transformed into some kind of perfection. Actually, it's all pretty much the same, except that I'm not hungover all the time. I kinda expected too much. But I'm not tempted to start drinking again. I think I need to take a look at everything in my life and make some clear headed decisions, something I wasn't really in a place to do before.
Congratulations on your sobriety!
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Do doubt about that Genie. Not just the hangovers, but being able to think clearly. Today's weirdness at work (I really couldn't begin to describe what a strange day it was) is a great example. Two people I respect a lot told me that I handled it really well. And you know what? I did. I wouldn't have done nearly as well when I was drinking, even on a day with no hangover. It took a couple of weeks for the haze to lift enough that I could really notice it had been there in the first place.
No, I guess I just thought somehow all the problems would go away. They didn't. But I deal with them better.
Sigh. Another crazy day tomorrow. But another day of clear thought, no hangover, and even though I won't sleep well, I'll sleep a lot better than I did when I was drinking.
No, I guess I just thought somehow all the problems would go away. They didn't. But I deal with them better.
Sigh. Another crazy day tomorrow. But another day of clear thought, no hangover, and even though I won't sleep well, I'll sleep a lot better than I did when I was drinking.
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