Roommate hunting today
Roommate hunting today
Today I have time to head to the town that I'm going to move to in order to be closer to my husband and daughter. I'm feeling so many things it's terrifying. First off, I won't have her in my custody (at least not overnight) so that alone is really upsetting and I find myself trying to blame him -- even though I know he's taking measures to do the right thing for her and us. Also I'm almost 34 and have not lived in a shared housing other than with my husband and daughter for ages and I hope I can find some decent people. The place we're moving is about 100 miles from where I live now, and is drastically smaller so I hope I won't find it boring and depressing, and I hope I can find some work.
So, I'm just feeling so anxious, angry, and a host of other things. All these emotions usually conspire to move me in the direction of alcohol. I am going to resist as much as I can but I am terrified to do all this. I have so many questions and unknowns. I guess I never realized that alcohol was making me very dependent on not just it, but a lifestyle of inaction. I'm trying to see this as a positive thing, but it's just very hard.
So, I'm just feeling so anxious, angry, and a host of other things. All these emotions usually conspire to move me in the direction of alcohol. I am going to resist as much as I can but I am terrified to do all this. I have so many questions and unknowns. I guess I never realized that alcohol was making me very dependent on not just it, but a lifestyle of inaction. I'm trying to see this as a positive thing, but it's just very hard.
The sober house turns out to be full at the time. They have eight people living there right now. It's also another 25 miles out of the town and I didn't realize that at the time.
There are online Smart meetings and I am in touch with a number of people from Smart who I can talk to. I'm an artist though, so maybe I'll just try to get uber-productive before Christmas and see if I can sell some stuff?
Thanks for the positive thoughts, folks! I think I may have met the right person. We clicked right away, she has a large art studio, DOES NOT DRINK, is in need of web/graphic design (which I can provide) and said she'd waive the fee of my rent for next month in exchange for these services I can do! Wow. In addition, I think we really got along as -- do I dare say, friends? I only met her today be we seemed to be on the same page and I told her I though it could be the real deal. She seemed to agree! I think we're going to be in the business of helping each other. I'm so happy it seems to be coming together.
Thanks, all, for caring!
Thanks, all, for caring!
Stella I am glad to see the update. I found through all the ups/downs with my drinking and early sobriety that things do pass and eventually it all does seem to come together. I too would be quick to grab a drink but i found as I went along in sobriety....that as I tackled some tough things in my life that everything was so much better when I was sober.
Huggs and all the best with this roommate. Thinking of you and keep sharing.
Huggs and all the best with this roommate. Thinking of you and keep sharing.
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