xuse

i drank i did it i was at a fire and did it must i say i had fun didnt drink to many but i did it sorry.

xuse

i guess i dont deserve a response

Dee74

Hey xuse - it's a down time here at this time of day.
I doubt anyone's mad at you - we've all had false starts.

When you feel up for it, go back and look at your early posts, man - remind yourself why you're here and what you're fighting for

Have you thought about adding more support xuse? AA or some other group, or counselling?

D

xuse

hey d no about god and talk to him i just no this cycle cant last foreever i can go every night but saturday i say what the crap my wife says im not an alcoholic but on saturday i cant stay away

Dee74

It doesn't really matter what other people think about your drinking xuse - even if it is your wife - it's obviously a worry to you or you wouldn't be here, right?

I was caught in a cycle too - I had to do something different to break that cycle.

If it's not AA, ok...but maybe you need to decide what exactly you will do different now to change things, xuse?

D

Lilly03

I'm glad you're back here after the drink And I agree with Dee, we've all had false starts.

xuse

it seems easy mon-fri but on saturday i feel i owe myself something but my ibs always acts up drink or not it adds to my stress i had an ultra sound of my whole right quad 3 months ago showed nothing im just misable im damed if i do same if i dont uhh

tmbg

Seriously. I make a point of coming here on Saturday nights/weekend just to give hope to people who would be like me...it's a bad time usually--and I'd by lying if I said it wasn't to help myself; a hard cycle to break even if you stay sober otherwise.

Lilly03

For me the weekends are the hardest too, and I also come here. It helps a lot.

xuse

im here because i want to live a long time ive got 12 year old twins and a five year old girl i no the way i eat over weight or not i cant be healthy and drink a twelve pack or more on saturday i use to drink alot more but i cant let it go

xuse

hello

xuse

maybe this is what it takes y dont no

Lilly03

I don't think your relapse was a failure - I think it just means you missed something the first time. Like support? And the fact that you STILL want to stop is a good sign. I agree with Dee on the AA. Also, it's very slow here tonight.

xuse

k y on saturday

Lilly03

Why is it slow on Saturday? A lot of people are probably preparing for Halloween or doing Halloween stuff tonight.

xuse

ok on sunday morning

Lilly03

I don't know, I'm going to go into the chat feel free to meet me in there if you need someone to talk to.

xuse

well i understand but seems like this would be a good time for support no chat room for me

tmbg

Sometimes it feels that you're going it alone, but really, you're not. I could be wrong (of course), but it seems as if you need the extra support of AA--if you can get to meetings. It can be difficult when you're at home with young ones, though. At any rate, keep posting.

xuse

k