NewOutlook

I first and formost am a mom of 2. I began taking pain meds for "real" conditions. It quieted the loud roaring thunder of life. So I continued. Here I am a year and a half later. This is my 2nd attempt at sobriety...never thought that word would apply to my life. No judgements, I am the daughter of a alchohlic, drug addict, mentally ill father, and my mother whom takes more than i have, yet i still give. I wrote this today.......


With nothing to numb, it’s loud
Save me, help me, I need you
I want to always make you proud

I just feel the need to fall
Is this what my life is
Am I a sounding board for all

What about me
I would never dare to say
Silently, to myself I scream

2 pills and this all would go away,
Then 4, then 6
It will keep me from going astray

No that’s not me
Im going to change
I have changed but to what degree

Did you, Can you, When
“Holly your all I have”
But what if I fall, what then


PS day 2

Anna

Welcome!

For sure, none of us chose to be here, but here we are. And, we are a family here, and we have lots of support to offer.

ElegantlyWasted

Welcome! Read, write, laugh cry, vent, heal, grow... We've got it all here.

least

Welcome to SR! THank you for sharing your feelings about your addiction. It helps to free us if we can express our feelings honestly.

Please check out our substance abuse forum. Lots of support and information there.

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Dee74

Welcome New Outlook

You are not alone
You'll find a lot of support here

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MTWildflower

Welcome, NewOutlook.

Joe136

Welcome, Everyone here is very supportive and it helps to read the kind things people wright. Good luck with your efforts your on the right path

NewOutlook

Thanks everyone, I am so glad to have a place to vent....how do the meetings work?

Balou

Hi, I'm a mother and a pill addict as well. I am on Day 4 again, but starting to feel better now. You can find a meeting in your area, I go to NA meetings, and they are very supportive there. You will might find yourself crying a lot, but that's because it's a healing process. Nothing like the guilt of being a horrible mother. Good luck to you! You can find information on meetings at na.org or from resources on here.

Every waking moment is a chance to turn it all around.

Dinamic

WELCOME and all the BEST! You can do it.

Always remember we are here for you!

NewOutlook

I am on day 3, I am worried about going to NA meetings. I have made a name for myself in my comunity and I am just worried what if it's not anonymus. I understand and I am working to follow the twelve steps. I have told all my lies, and deceitfullness to those I hurt, I am just worried about getting out in a small town. All anyone does is talk! I want to attend some meetings on here. How many times have you gone back? I have 2 years of back and forth. My dr helped so i didn't have a bad w/d but that is almost making it tempting. Today i said no, Im praying for the chance tomorrow too!

Dee74

I'm not in NA, but I sure a lot of folks who are worried about this go that extra mile and go to out of town meetings

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