To all the Newcomers
To all the Newcomers
I don't know exactly what it is I want to say here so forgive me if I babble on!
Today would have been my 2 year anniversary being clean. In March I went to my old town to visit my children and I stayed for 8 weeks. My 6th week there I went to see an old friend and I got high, thinking to myself "just this once". I got high for 2 weeks.
Now I am back home and clean again and doing fine, except I am kicking myself in the a$$ because I am back on week 3. I took the pride I had in myself and threw it away.
I'm going to start meetings again. I used to secretary the NA meetings in my home group but the people I was so familiar with are 7 hours away from me. Starting over will be tough, but meetings helped me so much, gave me the tools I needed to keep me clean.
Anyways, just wanted to say that if you are wondering if you're missing anything out there...you're not. Believe me.
Today would have been my 2 year anniversary being clean. In March I went to my old town to visit my children and I stayed for 8 weeks. My 6th week there I went to see an old friend and I got high, thinking to myself "just this once". I got high for 2 weeks.
Now I am back home and clean again and doing fine, except I am kicking myself in the a$$ because I am back on week 3. I took the pride I had in myself and threw it away.
I'm going to start meetings again. I used to secretary the NA meetings in my home group but the people I was so familiar with are 7 hours away from me. Starting over will be tough, but meetings helped me so much, gave me the tools I needed to keep me clean.
Anyways, just wanted to say that if you are wondering if you're missing anything out there...you're not. Believe me.
SlvrMag - Anna's right. Those 2 yrs. are not lost, nothing can take away that accomplishment. I did the same thing, with alcohol - over & over I'd think it would be different if I just used willpower. "Just this once", and I'd go back on the wagon. It never worked out that way, and I kept playing with it until I almost lost my life.
You'll have even more resolve this time - never again will you have to be disappointed in yourself. That was the last time, and it's a new day.
You'll have even more resolve this time - never again will you have to be disappointed in yourself. That was the last time, and it's a new day.
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Thanks for posting. It takes a lot to admit that and be so humble about it all. Like others say you obviously haven't lost those 2 years but I can appreciate it still must be hard psychologically.
You have helped this recovering alcoholic with your post. No doubt helped many other alcoholics/addicts too. So thankyou. I mean that in the nicest way possible.
You have helped this recovering alcoholic with your post. No doubt helped many other alcoholics/addicts too. So thankyou. I mean that in the nicest way possible.
Thank You all so much!
This brought tears to my eyes:
I love my SR friends!
This brought tears to my eyes:
Thanks for posting. It takes a lot to admit that and be so humble about it all. Like others say you obviously haven't lost those 2 years but I can appreciate it still must be hard psychologically.
You have helped this recovering alcoholic with your post. No doubt helped many other alcoholics/addicts too. So thankyou. I mean that in the nicest way possible.
You have helped this recovering alcoholic with your post. No doubt helped many other alcoholics/addicts too. So thankyou. I mean that in the nicest way possible.
I love my SR friends!
Your post meant alot to me, too, Slvr. I'm struggling with a craving right now, and what keeps me from going out and getting some alcohol is that I really believe everyone here knows what they're talking about. There is NO reason for me to drink today, none at all.
Thanks again!
Thanks again!
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