At times guilty about moving on with my life
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Reality, NJ
Posts: 853
At times guilty about moving on with my life
I feel like I am moving on with my life and have some happiness. But at times I have guilt. Not sure why. Is this a codie thing? How to overcome this?
Hugs
Lulu
Hugs
Lulu
Member
Join Date: Nov 2009
Posts: 545
Hmm, my instictive response may not be repeated on here.
Think back to before you met him. Did you feel guilty about him not enjoying life then?
Fast forward to 30 years from now. How do you think you will feel?
His life is not for you to live.
Think back to before you met him. Did you feel guilty about him not enjoying life then?
Fast forward to 30 years from now. How do you think you will feel?
His life is not for you to live.
Member
Join Date: Sep 2009
Location: Somewhere, our planet
Posts: 174
Hi Lulu,
I understand the guilt thing...it's something I find myself struggling with on and off as I move on and AS stays behind. I try to remind myself that I deserve happiness and peace in my life, just as she does (and hopefully will one day discover on her own). Reading the posts on here helps keep me grounded, too. And I sometimes find that if I give myself "permission" to do something, I feel better about it (i.e. "I give myself permission to not think about AS today because thinking about her is causing me to have stress, and I don't need to feel stressed today because I need to focus on A, B, C...")
Wishing you hugs and good thoughts. Keep moving forward!
I understand the guilt thing...it's something I find myself struggling with on and off as I move on and AS stays behind. I try to remind myself that I deserve happiness and peace in my life, just as she does (and hopefully will one day discover on her own). Reading the posts on here helps keep me grounded, too. And I sometimes find that if I give myself "permission" to do something, I feel better about it (i.e. "I give myself permission to not think about AS today because thinking about her is causing me to have stress, and I don't need to feel stressed today because I need to focus on A, B, C...")
Wishing you hugs and good thoughts. Keep moving forward!
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Reality, NJ
Posts: 853
let's remember EVERYBODY has the opportunity to get on with life and be happy....there's not a limited number of Happy Passes out there and if you grab yours there won't be enough left for the other guy.
i'm wondering if it's GUILT as much as just plain ole UNEASE.....when was the last time you lived your life for you and sough your own happiness?
i'm wondering if it's GUILT as much as just plain ole UNEASE.....when was the last time you lived your life for you and sough your own happiness?
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Reality, NJ
Posts: 853
Truthfully I am guilty other guys are paying attention to me. But he is dating someone for months. I think I am scared to move on and have happiness..I am soooooo used to misery and pain and an empty marriage/
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Reality, NJ
Posts: 853
The fear. I am not doing so great at work and an nervous about that. But I want to change my job and go back to NYC where most of my life well happy life is. But scared of the job market.
I am scared he ruined me for anyone else.
I am scared I dont know exactly who I am. Or maybe I do I just dont like myself cause I married an A. Where was my brain?
I am scared other men will find me a freak
I am scared to think of a possible future with someone else.
I am scared I wont make it without him even though he made me miserable..He was my person.
I am scared cause I get very lonely and feel I shouldnt ans should be stronger than that.
So pretty scared.
I am scared he ruined me for anyone else.
I am scared I dont know exactly who I am. Or maybe I do I just dont like myself cause I married an A. Where was my brain?
I am scared other men will find me a freak
I am scared to think of a possible future with someone else.
I am scared I wont make it without him even though he made me miserable..He was my person.
I am scared cause I get very lonely and feel I shouldnt ans should be stronger than that.
So pretty scared.
The one above especially jumped out at me. I once believed that I could never be happy without a man in my life. Do you believe that? I'm here to tell you--it's not true.
For me, it was conditioning that I got in my childhood (mostly from my mother).
L
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Reality, NJ
Posts: 853
First thing I noticed was that most of those are either about him or a potential someone.
The one above especially jumped out at me. I once believed that I could never be happy without a man in my life. Do you believe that? I'm here to tell you--it's not true.
For me, it was conditioning that I got in my childhood (mostly from my mother).
L
The one above especially jumped out at me. I once believed that I could never be happy without a man in my life. Do you believe that? I'm here to tell you--it's not true.
For me, it was conditioning that I got in my childhood (mostly from my mother).
L
Member
Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: PA
Posts: 985
Whatever the reason for the feeling notice it - go with it - and then let go of it. The codie thing can be mostly when you are thinking about him instead of you. If you are having fun - enjoy. (and by the way - hasn't he been moving on without you)
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Reality, NJ
Posts: 853
Yes he has so that is why this is so weird!! Why am I guilty?? lol
Member
Join Date: Nov 2009
Posts: 545
Just after I left my ex and was feeling a little like you, I remember watching an end of season sports show where it went between lots of different stadia, homing in on the crowd and panning back to show the whole crowd. At lots of different grounds. And I realised how many men were in those crowds, who weren't my ex, whose lives I knew nothing about, whose lives I cared nothing about beyond human compassion should I have known the details.
I felt myself swoop way back and see the bigger picture. Can you do that?
I felt myself swoop way back and see the bigger picture. Can you do that?
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Reality, NJ
Posts: 853
Just after I left my ex and was feeling a little like you, I remember watching an end of season sports show where it went between lots of different stadia, homing in on the crowd and panning back to show the whole crowd. At lots of different grounds. And I realised how many men were in those crowds, who weren't my ex, whose lives I knew nothing about, whose lives I cared nothing about beyond human compassion should I have known the details.
I felt myself swoop way back and see the bigger picture. Can you do that?
I felt myself swoop way back and see the bigger picture. Can you do that?
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Reality, NJ
Posts: 853
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)