In a slump........a bad one
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In a slump........a bad one
I love coming here and reading everyone's ESH, and it always gives me hope of my own, but the past week, two weeks, I have been in the worst of slumps.
Physically I have been ill with a virus, added to ongoing illness, and I'm sure that has not helped.
I read my CAL, but can't remember anything I read (another side affect of my illness), I can't remember anything it seems, including the other day-how to use my windshield wipers. When that happened I was mortified, but the fibro fog has continued to worsen, to the point that tomorrow I am back to the Dr again.
I've been so physically tired that I've missed meetings, and haven't been calling my sponsor or reaching out to anyone in the program.
The depression from the fibro seems to have hit hard and in the back of my mind I'm thinking "why even bother" and in the front of my mind I'm thinking "your program can hold you up-just grab on" but it seems like everytime I try, I slip loose again, back into the pool of self pity that just wants my old life back.........the one where I was happy, energetic and could remember.
I need you all, and any ESH you can offer is always a blessing....
Physically I have been ill with a virus, added to ongoing illness, and I'm sure that has not helped.
I read my CAL, but can't remember anything I read (another side affect of my illness), I can't remember anything it seems, including the other day-how to use my windshield wipers. When that happened I was mortified, but the fibro fog has continued to worsen, to the point that tomorrow I am back to the Dr again.
I've been so physically tired that I've missed meetings, and haven't been calling my sponsor or reaching out to anyone in the program.
The depression from the fibro seems to have hit hard and in the back of my mind I'm thinking "why even bother" and in the front of my mind I'm thinking "your program can hold you up-just grab on" but it seems like everytime I try, I slip loose again, back into the pool of self pity that just wants my old life back.........the one where I was happy, energetic and could remember.
I need you all, and any ESH you can offer is always a blessing....
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: Boston
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I've been so physically tired that I've missed meetings, and haven't been calling my sponsor or reaching out to anyone in the program.
Is there a way you can force yourself to call someone? Sponsor or other program pal? Just call and say what you said here - you're down and you don't even have the energy to reach out.
I have had a virus for the last week too and it is the kind of upper respiratory thing that just wears me out - makes me depressed - no energy, no motivation, NADA!!!
YUK! I tell myself this too shall pass, take lots of hot showers, lay around whenever I can watching movies and reading, and maxing out my friends and family for soup, shoulder rubs, and small housekeeping chores...
I used to hate asking for help, and accepting help? Even harder. But it is a muscle I just force myself to exercise, and it has always been a good thing when help arrives!
Hope you feel better soon--
peace & (((((((hugs))))))))
b
Is there a way you can force yourself to call someone? Sponsor or other program pal? Just call and say what you said here - you're down and you don't even have the energy to reach out.
I have had a virus for the last week too and it is the kind of upper respiratory thing that just wears me out - makes me depressed - no energy, no motivation, NADA!!!
YUK! I tell myself this too shall pass, take lots of hot showers, lay around whenever I can watching movies and reading, and maxing out my friends and family for soup, shoulder rubs, and small housekeeping chores...
I used to hate asking for help, and accepting help? Even harder. But it is a muscle I just force myself to exercise, and it has always been a good thing when help arrives!
Hope you feel better soon--
peace & (((((((hugs))))))))
b
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: Kansas
Posts: 10,182
When we are not physically well, it really kicks us hard, doesn't it?
I went up to the hospital last Thursday to make an appointment with my pain management specialist (he comes to town once a week to see patients) and they couldn't get me in until the 22nd.
So in the meantime I am dealing with a lot of pain, a poopy attitude off and on, and I have missed some meetings too!
Just wanted to let you know you are not alone, my dear! :ghug3
I went up to the hospital last Thursday to make an appointment with my pain management specialist (he comes to town once a week to see patients) and they couldn't get me in until the 22nd.
So in the meantime I am dealing with a lot of pain, a poopy attitude off and on, and I have missed some meetings too!
Just wanted to let you know you are not alone, my dear! :ghug3
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Join Date: Sep 2008
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Having a virus, in pain or any illness can drag anyone down. I have a few aches and pains due to my arthritis not liking this humid and wet weather the past few weeks, and need sugery on a nerve tangle on the ball of my foot.
I am rather Peeved as I cannot serve as Eucharistic minister over this Easter season, as every so often these nerves in my foot send a shock thru me, and last week I almost tossed the chalice of wine over a communicant when it happened in mass.
Sometimes I just have to grit my teeth, and plod on, til finally the blackness lifts and I can feel human again.
Don't give in, just care for yourself until your virus goes home, and you need handle the fibro which is hard enough.
God bless
I am rather Peeved as I cannot serve as Eucharistic minister over this Easter season, as every so often these nerves in my foot send a shock thru me, and last week I almost tossed the chalice of wine over a communicant when it happened in mass.
Sometimes I just have to grit my teeth, and plod on, til finally the blackness lifts and I can feel human again.
Don't give in, just care for yourself until your virus goes home, and you need handle the fibro which is hard enough.
God bless
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Join Date: Apr 2008
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"Physically I have been ill with a virus"
Me too. Stomache flu - Yuck. On top of that I'm in emotional hell. Which makes me want to throw up in it's own right. Nothing to offer as far as help except SYMPATHY.
Me too. Stomache flu - Yuck. On top of that I'm in emotional hell. Which makes me want to throw up in it's own right. Nothing to offer as far as help except SYMPATHY.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: Boston
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How are you today 12stepnchick?
The sun finally came out on the east coast this morning. Alleluiah. The gloom and rain was too much a mirror of my mood! Going to get out and get some Vitamin D going!!
peace-
b
The sun finally came out on the east coast this morning. Alleluiah. The gloom and rain was too much a mirror of my mood! Going to get out and get some Vitamin D going!!
peace-
b
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Join Date: Sep 2006
Location: Butte, America
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I've been so physically tired that I've missed meetings, and haven't been calling my sponsor or reaching out to anyone in the program.
ask for a FULL PANEL thyroid test -
the reason being -
fibro and thyroid disease go hand in hand.
What you're describing is EXACTLY how I felt
and continued to deteriorate and feel worse over a YEAR
until I was parctically DEAD from hypothyoridism -
just because the doc kept running a 'general' thyroid test
and not a full panel TSH count. (thyroid stimulating hormone)
Be sure - that way you KNOW.
I'd hate to see anyone suffer like I did those years. IT's taken me TWO YEARS to get the thyroid back to a live-able count.
Again-
Thyroid disease and fibro go hand in hand. One is often misdiagnosed as the other - or someone has both and goes undiagnosed for years.
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