intention

I used to always have noise going on in my house - TV, music - if the house was quiet, I couldn't stand the silence.

I have now realised it was not the silence I couldn't cope with, it was the noise in my head. I used to use the TV, radio to distract me from the noise.

My head is now quiet and still as I have got out of it and put God in my place. I love the silence of my house now when there is no TV blaring, radio or 7 year old Jedi Master flying around with a lightsaber. It's peaceful and serene.

I came up against a problem the other day and I got back into my head to try to solve it. Within 30 seconds I was insane again and the noise was deafening. 30 seconds was as much as I could stand.

Thank God I don't have to live like that any more. I am very grateful to be recovered - grateful to AA and the 12 Step program of AA.

CStyle

My sponsor used to tell me that my head was like a bad neighborhood, I probably shouldn't go there alone.

shaun00

Ain't that just something..

the gift of clarity of thought......to be rid of that cluttered sick mind
to have our mind renewed.....and to know peace.

i remember my sponsor saying "your done"....go read what the book says about step 2.....were discuss it tomorrow.
i remember my first "whiff" of serenity.......i didn't know what it was, i just felt i was gonna be OK and things are gonna work out.....one of those feeling that gets you grinning.

i phoned him telling him i felt great............his answer was "thats cos you've quit fighting lad"...
i hear it all the time...."the fight" when for me it was the opposite.
admitting complete defeat let a large beam of light flood in......

it faded as quick as it came as it was replaced with fear of having to get to grips with a god that was sending me to hell.........or so i thought.

that isn't my god today.........its my mothers and will stay that way.

i know the peace you talk of.......its part of my new mind.
BUT so is life...with all that entails..

So.........i have learnt to pause.
grab the dog.......leave my phone at home..........and take a trip into the beautiful countryside that surrounds me.

i pray out loud and give thanks for a way of life that is indescribably wonderful.
i humbly ask him, that he might put me in the right place at the right time to be of help to someone.

i remember a dark time in my life i wanted to literally wanted to tear my hair out my head.....i wanted no part of life anymore.
thankyou father for no giving me enough courage to do that.....

tomorrow i have my beautiful granddaughter to myself all day...
it dont get any better......imagine that.....hopeless street drunk to loving trusted grandad........

intention

I think that is a good suggestion

intention

Thanks Trucker for sharing that. I pray out loud too sometimes. I hope you had a beautiful day with your granddaughter - the sun has been out, the crocuses are out and Spring may be here.

Boleo

Since I have been given the gift of sobriety, I have stopped watching TV, listening to music and leaving the radio on for more than the news (NPR only).

If someone around me wants to do these things I don't try to stop them as it is not like an obsession with me. I simply enjoy more quiet-time for prayer & meditation.

(There is an old Buddhist saying)

"A man should measure his wealth by that which he does not need".

intention

This is how I am experiencing it. I have also stopped reading tabloid newspapers and celeb gossip mags as I no longer need them and my need for them before was from an unhealthy, intrusive, judgemental motive.

I like that. Thanks for sharing.