Ain't that just something..
the gift of clarity of thought......to be rid of that cluttered sick mind
to have our mind renewed.....and to know peace.
i remember my sponsor saying "your done"....go read what the book says about step 2.....were discuss it tomorrow.
i remember my first "whiff" of serenity.......i didn't know what it was, i just felt i was gonna be OK and things are gonna work out.....one of those feeling that gets you grinning.
i phoned him telling him i felt great............his answer was "thats cos you've quit fighting lad"...
i hear it all the time...."the fight" when for me it was the opposite.
admitting complete defeat let a large beam of light flood in......
it faded as quick as it came as it was replaced with fear of having to get to grips with a god that was sending me to hell.........or so i thought.
that isn't my god today.........its my mothers and will stay that way.
i know the peace you talk of.......its part of my new mind.
BUT so is life...with all that entails..
So.........i have learnt to pause.
grab the dog.......leave my phone at home..........and take a trip into the beautiful countryside that surrounds me.
i pray out loud and give thanks for a way of life that is indescribably wonderful.
i humbly ask him, that he might put me in the right place at the right time to be of help to someone.
i remember a dark time in my life i wanted to literally wanted to tear my hair out my head.....i wanted no part of life anymore.
thankyou father for no giving me enough courage to do that.....
tomorrow i have my beautiful granddaughter to myself all day...
it dont get any better......imagine that.....hopeless street drunk to loving trusted grandad........