Why does this have to be so hard
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Why does this have to be so hard
After last night, things just keep clicking. I am starting to see little by little from an ousiders eyes. How unhealthy my life is and identifying the things he does that are wrong.
He bascially uses me as a door mat. I am his personal servent. He is a child.
In the past he has made me feel like I am the crazy one. I am starting to realize I'm not crazy he is.
My next step is to write down what my expecatations are. I'll reveiw that with my counsleor and give it to him. It sounds so easy when you say it, but I know it is NOT going to be easy. It is going to be horrible!! Am I really ready for this? Sometimes I feel strong and then I second guess myself. Geezzz....it is so hard!
He bascially uses me as a door mat. I am his personal servent. He is a child.
In the past he has made me feel like I am the crazy one. I am starting to realize I'm not crazy he is.
My next step is to write down what my expecatations are. I'll reveiw that with my counsleor and give it to him. It sounds so easy when you say it, but I know it is NOT going to be easy. It is going to be horrible!! Am I really ready for this? Sometimes I feel strong and then I second guess myself. Geezzz....it is so hard!
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You are making progress and it looks good from here!
It's amazing what our world looks like when we begin to see things as they really are instead of how we hoped they were. Personal recovery is a journey. Your journey will continue to progress as you continue to make healthy choices for yourself and children.
Peace and hugs as you continue One Day At A Time
It's amazing what our world looks like when we begin to see things as they really are instead of how we hoped they were. Personal recovery is a journey. Your journey will continue to progress as you continue to make healthy choices for yourself and children.
Peace and hugs as you continue One Day At A Time
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Originally Posted by CAAW 
My next step is to write down what my expecatations are. I'll reveiw that with my counsleor and give it to him. It sounds so easy when you say it, but I know it is NOT going to be easy. It is going to be horrible!! Am I really ready for this? Sometimes I feel strong and then I second guess myself. Geezzz....it is so hard!
Yes, it's hard but YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT TO GET TO IT! And while going "through it" you will discover wonderful things about yourself....and so will your children.
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Oh my gosh I could have written this. I can so identify with you. Especially second guessing myself and thinking I am crazy. And I too am writing stuff down to take in to my therapist appt. tomorrow! I have so much fear at times... We cannot live like this anymore. We have one precious life and we need to be happy.
We can be here for each other!! Let us know how it goes...
We can be here for each other!! Let us know how it goes...
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Originally Posted by jehnifer
Oh my gosh I could have written this. I can so identify with you. Especially second guessing myself and thinking I am crazy. And I too am writing stuff down to take in to my therapist appt. tomorrow! I have so much fear at times... We cannot live like this anymore. We have one precious life and we need to be happy.
We can be here for each other!! Let us know how it goes...
We can be here for each other!! Let us know how it goes...
Good luck to you. Let us know how your appointment goes!
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