dedubya

well i detoxed and all that 2 months ago and started having a beer or two or 4 (no real benders) every night the last 3 weeks (2 months without anything). that sucks. i need to quit again,,,oh well tomorrow is day 1 again. what a crazy disease this is. My life is in order and I just do this crap for no reason. I feel so good when i dont drink. hope you all are good.
dub

flutter

I had some false starts too..

I'm glad you're back. Maybe now you really affirmed in your head that it's just better to stay away from it, for good!

Mark75

Ridin' much?

Mark

keithj

"And the truth, strange to say, is usually that he has no more idea why he took that first drink than you have. Some drinkers have excuses with which they are satisfied part of the time. But in their hearts they really do not know why they do it." AA Big Book, Ch2, 1stEd

That sums it up for me, dedubya. Your life is in order, you feel good not drinking, you know exactly where it will lead. And yet...

You might be an alcoholic like me.

CarolD

A lot of us had bumps in the sobriety road....
Good to know you are starting again.

Wolfchild

i'm actually very sad that you continue to drink and rationalize away the serious nature of this progressive and fatal disease. It appears as if your are unwilling to completely surrender to this way of life and i feel sorry for you.
i hope and pray that you eventually hit such a bottom that the only place you have to go is up.

dedubya

Hey
Last week I did 4 36 mile rides around 16-17mph avg (usually 18-19 when I am riding alone so I need some work)- first rides for a while, my legs were wasted (climbs involved). I am back training for a century in Aug- it really helps keep my sober. Hope you are good- hows your riding going?
dub

dedubya

flutter you hit the nail right on. I am a sporadic person, and appreciate your wisdom. the great feeling I had in those two months approx sober were the best two months i have had in a long time. best to you.
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Mark75

Better... after rehab last fall I fell out of my training routine, then this horrible rainy weather here in the northeast...

But getting some regular daily riding in lately... 15-20 miles.. 15-17 mph (rolling terrain).

There's a great century around these parts in Sept. which I am gonna ride in to help motivate me.

Mark

four812

keep up the good work dub... sounds like you have a deep and rich life...with the potential to become even deeper and richer

dedubya

thanks C- it is a bump, and I need to start my meetings back- going tomorrow night after work to get back on track.
d

shelly009

Get back on that horse.. I mean bike! Nice to see you!

dedubya

thanks all- time to get to work, on my return to sobriety and cycling (oh, and my job that pays my bills). appreciate you all. will keep you posted...
dub

vegibean

Glad you checked in dub. Keep it up, I know you can do it.

SomeCallMeTim

Keep on keepin on man!!! It took 25 years for me to finally surrender, admit i was powerless (over alot more than booze/drugs) and ask for help from something greater than myself. If you fall down, get back up, dust yourself off and try again.

Lenina

((((dubs))))

I'm glad you're back! You were missed! Just keep on keeping on and do get to some meetings.

Love,

Lenina

Nawny

hope everything will back on track for ya

Gypsy Feet

It trips me out that people spend all that time in detox/rehab and then come out and figure a couple beers sound good. . .

baffling indeed


Glad your back

smacked

Welcome back, what do you have added to your toolbox to keep you stuck on the sober side now?

Dee74

Glad to see you back Dub.
You know what you need to do, mate

D