I am proud to say that I'm done!!!
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Join Date: Jul 2003
Location: San Jose, CA
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I am proud to say that I'm done!!!
No longer can I "be mad at the disease". I am mad at my husband. He is a frigging mess.
Blames me for everything. He has cost me so much money its not even funny.
I just can't live with THIS anymore......
http://www.audblog.com/media/4967/23805.mp3
That is what I have endured for three years. I am the reason he's walking around the streets because I'm a biatch. I am the one that is keeping him from his son. When I tell him to take ownership, he says he does but he does not. I have cried until I have no tears left to cry.
Tomorrow I'll have a restraining order because he lurks outside my window and he is just generally freaky when he's high. Part of me is so happy to be at this decision but the other part of me is just generally very sad. I brought a child into this world and now I'm going to have to do this alone. If I had any insite, I would not have done that to my son. I'm living in a world that I myself didn't grow up in!
Once I get settled, I think its time for me to revisit meetings. I am really lacking in that feeling of being grounded that comes from meetings!
Blames me for everything. He has cost me so much money its not even funny.
I just can't live with THIS anymore......
http://www.audblog.com/media/4967/23805.mp3
That is what I have endured for three years. I am the reason he's walking around the streets because I'm a biatch. I am the one that is keeping him from his son. When I tell him to take ownership, he says he does but he does not. I have cried until I have no tears left to cry.
Tomorrow I'll have a restraining order because he lurks outside my window and he is just generally freaky when he's high. Part of me is so happy to be at this decision but the other part of me is just generally very sad. I brought a child into this world and now I'm going to have to do this alone. If I had any insite, I would not have done that to my son. I'm living in a world that I myself didn't grow up in!
Once I get settled, I think its time for me to revisit meetings. I am really lacking in that feeling of being grounded that comes from meetings!
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Join Date: Aug 2001
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Hiya Mookie.
What's under that link? If you don't want to live with it I'm kind of scared to look at it.
I'm glad you're planning to get back to your meetings. I know transitions are rough, but surely not any rougher than what led up to the decision to make the change. We'll be here for you. Come and scream anytime. You can be smug too, if you want.
Hugs,
Smoke
What's under that link? If you don't want to live with it I'm kind of scared to look at it.
I'm glad you're planning to get back to your meetings. I know transitions are rough, but surely not any rougher than what led up to the decision to make the change. We'll be here for you. Come and scream anytime. You can be smug too, if you want.
Hugs,
Smoke
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Join Date: Oct 2002
Location: In.....trouble :-)
Posts: 1,453
Mookie,
Getting back to your meetings where you can get some balance and grounding is a good idea. I know your decision hasn't been an easy one, but I always find my life easier and more peaceful when I have a plan and stick to it. You have a plan, so the hardest part of deciding is over.
Hang in there, gal. We're here for you.
Hugs,
Hangin' In
Getting back to your meetings where you can get some balance and grounding is a good idea. I know your decision hasn't been an easy one, but I always find my life easier and more peaceful when I have a plan and stick to it. You have a plan, so the hardest part of deciding is over.
Hang in there, gal. We're here for you.
Hugs,
Hangin' In
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