Now I'm done with it...
It's time to change!
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Now I'm done with it...
...the beer detoxing! I felt that I was starting to fool myself into thinking I'll just do this 4-5 days and get well. I gave it all up today and realized I will just keep battling the alcohol if I try to stretch it out anymore.
I know so many here do not agree with the methods as I've used. I understand and believe that many of your posts and msgs to me (or on other threads) were the turning point to just give it up now.... To let it go completely.
I know you're all here for me and others for the right reasons and care. I get frustrated when I'm the only one in agreement with myself, at times. But there's something for me to look at when this is the case, huh?
I pray for strength, hope and wellness to come back to me soon. I've just got to really hang in there and with you all here.
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I know so many here do not agree with the methods as I've used. I understand and believe that many of your posts and msgs to me (or on other threads) were the turning point to just give it up now.... To let it go completely.
I know you're all here for me and others for the right reasons and care. I get frustrated when I'm the only one in agreement with myself, at times. But there's something for me to look at when this is the case, huh?
I pray for strength, hope and wellness to come back to me soon. I've just got to really hang in there and with you all here.
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Originally Posted by CAPTAINZING2000 
Not sure I grasp what your plans are!!
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You can do it Nicki! We're behind you and will do our best to help you out any way we can. We all have a lot to work on, but we can do it together. None of us have to go through it alone. 
I got faith that you can make it. Keep trying and keep working hard.
Wes
I got faith that you can make it. Keep trying and keep working hard. Wes
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Originally Posted by ViciousCycle
Come on over tonight Nick. You can help me finish painting the kitchen! That will keep your mind of drinking.......or put you to sleep.....!!
Hugs Baby!!
Hugs Baby!!
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Nicki,
You are making the best decision. I went through that so many times, convincing myself it would make it easier, but it never worked. In the end, the detoxing was just something that I had to go through. You'll get through this!
Stick around the boards tonight, and we'll keep you company.
You are making the best decision. I went through that so many times, convincing myself it would make it easier, but it never worked. In the end, the detoxing was just something that I had to go through. You'll get through this!
Stick around the boards tonight, and we'll keep you company.
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Originally Posted by ViciousCycle
About 7pm. Bring a bottle of....................soda! I will even make you dinner, I am a gourmet cook of sorts!
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Originally Posted by Toomutch
Hey Nikki - I like your new plan too. Stay near because were here for you.
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Originally Posted by nickishine
no more drinking to detox. This has to end now. No more alcohol going thru my body today, tomorrow and hopefully the other days ahead.
works for me on a daily basis.
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Nikki, you already sound like you're getting better. You are sounding more positive and that's a great start. You've touched a great deal of people on here, including me, and I will be here for you and help in anyway I can.
Just don't drink today.
Then tomorrow, just don't drink then.
One Day at A Time!
Big BIG HUGS,
Judy
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Just a note to tell everyone that I met with my sponsor for a couple hours today. She's taking me back YEAH! Have a good plan to get back on track ASAP with her help, here, meetings, and all the inbetween stuff. She's got a lot of years and a lot of compassion -not BS or will tolerate BS either. I'm finding some trust and respect for her.
Just want to say "Thank you" to you all for being here and helping me get through so many of the rough spots!
Just want to say "Thank you" to you all for being here and helping me get through so many of the rough spots!
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Originally Posted by lovinmenow
Hi Nicki,
How are you doing today?
How are you doing today?
Today is day 1 and am doing great, really! My bod is tore up and muscles hurt (naturally) but gone is the other stuff! My spirits are high today and I'm a little awed by this???.... Usually depression is suffocating me!!!!
I met with my sponsor yesterday for a couple hours and was floored that she could tie in this recent relapse with something that triggered childhood powerlessness. I had a Pervie client that went overboard (and so much more than just that). I drank. I started feeling it was all my fault.
She gave me eyes to see that this was a prey/victim situation and we'll be taking this to the head of a major corporation to report this guy. I didn't/couldn't have any power when I was a child.... she's going to help me regain power in situations in appropriate & direct ways. I feel that I found the right gal to work with me all the way around! Can't wait to report this guy -- it was more than a nightmare! I can't give all the details here because that opens the doors to a world of opinions that I may not be able to handle (some of them). Maybe I'll post on the Women's forum, I don't know. I pretty much got my answers yesterday, and direction.
Yeah for Day 1!!! I made it back before it killed me! Lots of love to ya all!
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