shaun00

hi all. Ive been a memeber of this site for about 2 weeks now and id like to reveal the reasons why i came here.
Some of you already know that im a recovering from chronic alcoholism and have had alot of help to achieve over 8 years sober.
Very early in my recovery i knew i would need AA more importantly the 12 steps.
I knew i could not manage my own life with or without alcohol...
Over time i invited god into my life....only to learn he had always been there for me anyway...i just needed to open my eyes and trust.

Without these two elements in my life....i believe i will slowly return to drinking.....Or worse, act like im drinking. Whats the point of being sober and still going to jail.
I believe im a long way from the person i used to be..working through the steps and trusting in god has opened my world up.
My old world was full of me me me me and more me.
A voilent street bum with only the next drink on my mind.

I believe that i need to remember that because to be honest it fades with time...I know in my heart that one drink and im back there or worse.

But i have had a problem or worry.
For the last couple of months ive felt something missing from my recovery.
A kind of old discontent feeling...........
I thought maybe cos ive started a new job doing nights was it.
or just a flat spot which happens sometimes.
Ive been doing meetings about once a week...same meetings ive always done.
But felt empty when i got home.....i used to feel refreshed and inspired.

I came here looking for an answer and i believe ive found it.

I havent been spending enough time with the newcomer....ive been doing my best with 11.5 steps and it aint working.
The meetings i do have very few newcomers if any.
I live in the country and the people i see are mostly 5 years plus sober.
Same people every week.
After being on s.r around early recovery i felt i could contribute and it immediately felt right.
I need to give this away if i want to keep it and i truly believe that.
First time for a while ive felt right.
Im also inspired by the commitment of early sober members and they help me more than they know.
So there it is.....sit on my backside and the old feelings of discontent come back.......just needed a bit of self exploration and a bit of honesty.
I believe for me that there are twelve steps for a reason.
I know that aa isnt for everyone and i except people get sober other ways...all that matters is that we get sober and are content i guess.

So whether you are eight minutes sober or eight years we all need another alcoholic or addict......i believe.

Thankyou again to the newcomer..........i need you......god be with you..trucker.

Anna

I agree with you Trucker, it's great to see the newcomers.

I love this forum and seeing the hope that people find when they come here and the support that is offered. I am always inspired.

Rowan

I'm in AA too but know that one doesn't need to be in the program to help someone else. Thanks for sharing - I agree that helping someone else helps us too.

Glad you found us and look forward to more of your posts.

findingkermit

Thankyou trucker, from the bottom of a 43 yr old mother of 6's heart, who is on day 10, your post made me feel very special, I know it was for all new comers, but it brought a little tear to my eye, to know that their are others who have travelled such a long jpourney and still have a big heart for others like me who are just scared and lost and just starting on our journey..... thankyou

mle-sober

Thanks Trucker. I feel the same way. Sometimes, if I notice my spirit lagging behind, I know I can come here and talk to the newcomers and find my own sense of belonging and spirit again.

Pam08

Hiya Trucker, I am newly sober, 38 days now..and go to AA pretty much everyday and sometimes twice..I am taking AA , the big book and the steps very seriously...I listen to the ole timers and want what they have, the serenity they have...I learn so much from them.
I have found that newbies help them keep intouch and stay sober. Thank you for sharing , nice for newbies to know they are giving back as much as they are receiving by being here sharing.

CarolD

Thanks for sharing Trucker ...
I too use SR as a vital part of my AA recovery.

Congratulations on youur 8 years
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All About Love

thankyou trucker!
im just over 3months clean an am moved to read your humble post
awesome:ghug3

Sugah

Ah, the great paradox of the steps! If we want to keep it, we have to keep giving it away.

Glad you're here, trucker.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

least

Thank you for your post! It truly is in giving that we receive! It always makes me feel good to welcome a newcomer. I was welcomed warmly when I came here and I like to do the same for others. Thanks for the reminder of the best way to stay sober - to go help another alcoholic/addict!

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